nobody's ugly, and if he said you were then screw him, he wasn't right for you.

You make as many as you like or need. This is no problem at all.
This is why you and most are here. And myself included.

I do the same thing with past girlfriends. I think was all that a dream. Did it happen at all. Is it just my mined thinking this to make me think that I was in love and happy at the time. Well whether I was happy or not is a different question. I mean I have been the one to put a stop to every relationship I have been in. So although I do remember this time as good times why would I had ended them if I was happy? The human mined boggles.

I know what you mean about spending ever night alone. Every one I know is in a relationship as well. I do have two cousins I see from time to time. Prob one time a week. they both are but I have to say I have never been made to feel like a gooseberry. But that still leaves 6 nights a week for me being at a loss end.

Sometimes this dose get to me in a big way. I have cried about it be for. Not for a long time I have to say. But sometimes I wish I could cry. Sometimes it makes you feel better to have a good cry.

Your a special person and you well fined someone. You just white and see. Your bout well come in one day. You never now whats round the corner for you.

This also is very true.

I'm sorry you still feel like this hun, we've talked about how you're going to try to get over it. I understand exactly what it's like to miss those things. The fact that he lied just means he wanted to sound good or cool infront of the people he said that to. You should straighten them out and tell them the truth...as far as you being ugly, you know that's not true, I've told you that many times and I'm sure he wouldn't have kept coming back for more sexually related things if you were bad. Remember he was never with another girl before you, he probably sucked, you just dont know it...so he wouldn't know even if you did suck. anyway, I'm sorry about how our last talk went and I hope you're not pissed at me. I hope we can talk again soon...miss ya.

I can feel your pain. I'm married but spend every night alone, she doesn't share my bed, only the house, I think of all the little thing I miss and wonder why I stay. Change is coming.