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jenn Junior Member   Posts: 20 Group: Registered Joined: May 2008 Status: Offline Reputation
MyMood:  Points: 431.20 [View Inventory] | another night alone
i know another post from me talking about how alone i am.
during my shift during slow periods my mind drifted back to how things used to be with him. the way he would look at me before he kissed me, how he use to rub my thigh when we would sit on my bed and talk. but its starting to feel more like something that i am imagining rather than a memory. it's depressing to think that its starting to feel like i never got to have him at all.
so i'm sitting here alone. i went through my phone trying to think of someone to hang out. every person i know is actually with their boyfriend or girlfriend this evening. i know its pathetic to be upset about that. i'm happy for all of them, but i guess it didn't dawn on me all my friends have someone now. i do still get to see them, but they want to be alone with the person they are seeing more. completely understandable. i just wish i didn't have to spend 5 out of 7 of my nights alone and the other two surrounded by happy couples. |
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| 07-31-2008 01:33 PM | |
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investor Junior Member    Posts: 26 Group: Registered Joined: Aug 2007 Status: Offline Reputation
MyMood: None Points: 83.80 [View Inventory] | RE: another night alone
i know another post from me talking about how alone i am.
during my shift during slow periods my mind drifted back to how things used to be with him. the way he would look at me before he kissed me, how he use to rub my thigh when we would sit on my bed and talk. but its starting to feel more like something that i am imagining rather than a memory. it's depressing to think that its starting to feel like i never got to have him at all.
so i'm sitting here alone. i went through my phone trying to think of someone to hang out. every person i know is actually with their boyfriend or girlfriend this evening. i know its pathetic to be upset about that. i'm happy for all of them, but i guess it didn't dawn on me all my friends have someone now. i do still get to see them, but they want to be alone with the person they are seeing more. completely understandable. i just wish i didn't have to spend 5 out of 7 of my nights alone and the other two surrounded by happy couples. yup I know what you mean; My best friend neglects me for whichever new girl comes along; I don't care anymore really; I've learned to become unaffected by negative things and just be hollow because Its the only way I can get through it; I'm just glad I still have hope; If there is one thing every one has on this Earth is hope
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| 07-31-2008 05:21 PM | |
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SighX99 Loner from the Beginning     Posts: 144 Group: Registered Joined: May 2007 Status: Online Reputation
MyMood:  Points: 430.80 [View Inventory] | RE: another night alone
you are definitely NOT alone for feeling this way. I'm in a worse situation than you are. You seem like you have some qualities that some people appreciate. keep waiting, in the end, someone will end up loving you the way you are.
theres no hope for me since I'm a guy i'm supposed to do everything, but im sick and tired of trying to start a relationship right now so i'm not even trying. i think im going to spend more nights alone than most people.
i dont get your guy at all, I would've been all over the the girl if that girl had a crush on me. A tout le monde, A tout mes amis, Je vous aime, Je dois partir |
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| 07-31-2008 07:31 PM | |
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RobertJW Member     Posts: 164 Group: Registered Joined: May 2008 Status: Offline Reputation
MyMood:  Points: 404.10 [View Inventory] | RE: another night alone
I can sympathise............I'm off work on holiday.........told my kids I'd be here alone and bored.....and they still havent come round to spend any time with me.
Not even a text or phone call.
I wish I was dead, I'm so depressed Where are all the nice girls? |
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| 08-01-2008 09:34 AM | |
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bluehawk Member     Posts: 109 Group: Registered Joined: Aug 2008 Status: Offline Reputation
MyMood:  Points: 357.60 [View Inventory] | RE: another night alone
i know another post from me talking about how alone i am.
during my shift during slow periods my mind drifted back to how things used to be with him. the way he would look at me before he kissed me, how he use to rub my thigh when we would sit on my bed and talk. but its starting to feel more like something that i am imagining rather than a memory. it's depressing to think that its starting to feel like i never got to have him at all. Maaaaaaannn! I showed up here about two hours ago after typing "lonely people chat rooms" into my search engine. It's been kind of nice reading other people's posts; about how they feel much the same way I do regarding past relationships. But then I read a post by davechaos, and now this one by Jenn (one of the best girlfriends that I've had in this life was named "Jenn," and I still miss her sometimes) and I'm starting to get depressed again.
(I wonder if Jenn's phone number is in the local phonebook. . . .)
I guess maybe I can go to the chat room here and find someone to talk with. . . .
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| 08-01-2008 10:10 AM | |
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Knightsofwar210 One of the Strong and Lonely     Posts: 180 Group: Registered Joined: Jul 2008 Status: Offline Reputation
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| 08-01-2008 11:32 AM | |
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loketron grilled cheese connoisseur      Posts: 630 Group: Registered Joined: Jul 2008 Status: Offline Reputation
MyMood:  Points: 1,564.30 [View Inventory] | RE: another night alone
sorry to hear about it jenn, i know how you feel when you talk about HIM, just like when i talk about HER. it hurts missing all that stuff, but, get out there on your own and go scopin for new hotties (eww did i just say hotties referring to guys, EWW) love you
andKnightsofwar210is right: "Lonliness is one of worst feelings anyone can feel." the opisite of love, *sigh* |
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| 08-01-2008 02:28 PM | |
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Knightsofwar210 One of the Strong and Lonely     Posts: 180 Group: Registered Joined: Jul 2008 Status: Offline Reputation
MyMood:  Points: 449.10 [View Inventory] | RE: another night alone
I know the feeling all to well, it will bring you to your knees if you don't do something about it... |
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| 08-01-2008 02:32 PM | |
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jenn Junior Member   Posts: 20 Group: Registered Joined: May 2008 Status: Offline Reputation
MyMood:  Points: 431.20 [View Inventory] | RE: another night alone
i couldn't go out alone. no one would just come up and talk to me. and i would just be as lonely only in a different location. i'm so sad tonight again. i have just been crying the past two days. i can't stop myself from looking at pictures i have of him and stuff.
i may have mentioned in another post how he told everyone we know that he fucked me. his exact words i hear. we didn't actually do that, but things were headed in that direction. well anyway it use to not bother me, but i realize more and more that some guys will admit to sleeping with the most ugly girls, no matter how embarrassed of them they would have been at the time. so all those good memories i have are based on lies, which makes everything hurt worse. i wonder what else he said. he probably told them how disgusting i look naked, how i'm an awful kisser, how he had to think about other girls when we were together in order to get through it and how i have no clue what i'm doing in bed. i don't why but i keep thinking of that tonight. probably why i'm crying so much. |
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| 08-01-2008 03:06 PM | |
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Knightsofwar210 One of the Strong and Lonely     Posts: 180 Group: Registered Joined: Jul 2008 Status: Offline Reputation
MyMood:  Points: 449.10 [View Inventory] | RE: another night alone
Don't cry well I guess you can't help it, I know the feeling... |
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| 08-01-2008 03:36 PM | |
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