oh cool so you can lucid dream thats awesome, I've only had a few but i always wake up when i realize I'm dreaming,

but ya, sleeping is great, I take a nap almost everyday after school

well, yeah. that's the upside to being lonely. you have a lot of "you" time where you can learn a lot of new and interesting things. i also practice a lot of Zen.

Depressed...I can relate to your post. I have felt the same way for many,many years. I have come to the point of almost being a hermit, because I'm so afraid that someone will speak to me and I won't know what to say or it would come out sounding dumb. My situation is a little different, because men would approach me. I have been doing my best though to put on a happy face and try to talk to people lately. It really is a wierd feeling after being so quiet for so long. All I can really offer is my opinion as someone who shares a somewhat reversed take on your dilemma. Life is like a Broadway play is the view that I've adopted. Every1 wears a mask at one point or another when they leave home. Never change who you are inside or as a person, but try to put on a different face (attitude) while you're out. Go up to a few people once in awhile and try out new things in conversation on them until you find something that seems to be working. And, let me tell you , it takes a lot of courage (or at least, it did for me). Put on a big smile or expand on a comment they make to you. Heck, I even came up with some fake stuff just to start a conversation with a stranger. IE: Could I get directions to...or Do you have the time and btw that's a nice watch..I'm sure you get the point. Well, I've left you a small novel. I hope some of this helped, even just a little. Let me know how it goes for you.

I really agree with what the others said, if initially ur unable to talk ,just stand next to them and see what they are talking about. THat way ull gain some confidence. If they start talking about stuff that u know, then JOIN IN. ITll be hard the first time but it gets sooo much better when uve done it a couple of times.

Gluck!