No its not perfect at all. Its about as far from perfect as you could get. I mean the landlord at my local pub is a recovering alcoholic. How stupid that he is around drink 24/7. I remember last year he had started drinking again and fall behind the bar and cut hes head open and had to be taken to hospital. As far as am aware hes back on the wagon again now though.

I know what you mean about no one being there to stop you but you have to take better care to look after yourself when your on your own you know. You have to respect yourself and that means not drinking to exp. I mean ask yourself. Dose drinking actually make you feel better about things? Every time I have drunk to forget about shit I mostly end up crying my self to sleep in a fit of depression. All that drink dose is enhances the way your feeling. So if your feeling happy you well be moor happy. When you and me drink its cos where feeling down. So its not going to make us feel better is it?

You are a beautiful and intelligent women. You don't need to be drinking.

I know this to be true as I have seen a pick of you and read your posts. So I have prof of the above statement

wow bluey, thanks for your kind words. i suppose you're right really that it's a problem.