When I was in college, I used to go to parties once in a while (sometimes I was invited, sometimes I wasn't). Because I'm a loser I never really had anyone to talk to, so I'd start drinking as soon as I got there. Then my social inhibitions would ease, I'd feel much looser, and I might start talking to some people. But whenever I came back home, I'd feel so empty, so lonely inside. And just feel worse than I did before. Going to parties just made me more aware of how lonely, invisible, and unattractive I was. These guys in fraternities had such a great life - fun, parties, hot women - they were so lucky and I was so unlucky. On game days, they'd have tailgate parties, and I'd just watch and wish I was one of them. I really wish I had that feeling of brotherhood with other ppl. And the only way I could feel these feelings of insecurity and inferiority was by drinking. I think at some point, I became an addict. I never really got into trouble, but I felt dependence.

Yeah man, I know exactly what you mean, I didnt drink because I felt preasured to drink, I enjoyed it and it helped me losen up and talk to people. Its something you really need to be carefull with though, you dont want to get addicted.
Another thing NEVER DRINK ALONE! Ive learned that the hard way, last time I did I was so depressed and I tried to kill myself.

Anyways since then ive cut back, never really drank that frequently anyways, but I decided I should drink less anyways.

i know what you mean. i used to go to a few parties a couple years ago and id feel the same exact way. dont do parties anymore though, even on the rare occassion i am invited. ive realized i hate parties and im not too fond of drinking anymore. but yeah, i can definitely relate.

I try drinking once, but every time I drink my body feel weird I could not drink to the point of getting drunk because I would constantly have to go to the restroom. This only occur when I drink, so I stop it.

I try drinking once, but every time I drink my body feel weird I could not drink to the point of getting drunk because I would constantly have to go to the restroom. This only occur when I drink, so I stop it.

I don't much care for drinking either. I am actually directly aware of being out of it and actually struggle against the feeling itself. It's not exactly painful, but pretty uncomfortable. Can't say as I like feeling confused and stupid.

I think I'm going to start drinking again. What's the use of being sober. Every day that I wake up is just another day of being ugly, inferior, depressed, weak, stupid, friendless, and self-hating. Not crying out for attention just thinking out loud. I think it would be fun to be drunk all the time. Hopefully I'll fall off a cliff or a balcony and not have to worry about going through another day again. No wonder so many depressed people alcoholics.

if you start binge drinking you'll just be all that and drunk and pathetic on top of it.

That said, I do like drinking, and when I drink I drink to get drunk- but only around friends, at parties etc.

I have to be careful about drinking. I got dependent on alcohol sophmore year of college; due to depression/stress, I drank to get to sleep. I couldn't sleep otherwise. Drinking alone is never a good thing. I'm so thankful dad had a spare key and found me that day...

I drink alone fairly often, but never to the extent of getting drunk. I've never seen the appeal of that, I admit - but often after completing something well or feeling like I should reward myself, I'll pour myself a glass of cognac and just sit back to sip slowly.

I think it might be because I don't drink when I'm unhappy?

Regards,
IO

That's not a very bright idea. What's the use of being sober you say? Well, what's the use of being drunk? Much less than being sober. All those qualities you listed, both real and imaginary, would be like 10x magnified if you got drunk. Just look at any boozer swaying on the street, would you seriously want to look like them?

Although I'm probably not competent to discuss alcohol problems as I never saw the lure of alcohol myself.