i'm thinking about hypnotism because that might alter my mind so i wont do it
and if i wasn't a brick in the wall another brick would replace the place that i am in

Lipo,
First, never underestimate the power of good drugs. The legal kind, that is. These days, doctors have a plethora of good medicines to help people. Grant it, the medicines won't take your problems away, but most of them can at least help you deal with them a little easier. As for the cutting, well, I guess that we can sometimes feel like we're about to explode with anger, sadness, frustration, despair or whatever, and maybe the cutting is the only way you feel some kind of release. Or, maybe it's that your body is one of the few things in your life that you have complete control over, so you feel like you can do as you wish. As far as relationships, I don't know you and won't even attempt to give you well meaning relationship advice. I will tell you this, however. I spent the first ten or twelve years of my adult life in one crappy relationship after another. Everytime I exited a bad one, I left the relationship with a more clear picture of what I did or did not want in a relationship. Very few of us EVER get relationships right the first time. Heck, usually not even the second, third, fourth, etc. times. Figuring out what will and won't work for you, is a work in progress. Keep working at it. Look back at the good times, just as much as you look at the bad times. Learn from every mistake you think you make. Each mistake we make is a learning opportunity! And another thing...you're not a brick, you're a person. Bricks can be replaced, people can't. And guess what? If, at this time in your life, you don't think relationships work for you, then take a break from them. Too many times, we let who we are with (or without), define who we are. Our value is not in who we are with, but in who we are or can be or want to be. The only person that you can ever really change to suit you is.....well, you. Keep your chin up, dude. There seems to be quite a few people here, on this forum, who have a genuine concern for you. That's rare, don't take it lightly.

smooches....

Eve

This post was last modified: 06-19-2008 11:04 AM by EveWasFramed.

alright thanks for the message eve

That is a good idea

Hypnotherapy can be a very effective tool. Most of the ppl you would go to for help with this would be professional and not say anything to any one else about it ether. (You may have to pay privet for that though.) But ether way I would still go to your doctor and tell him whats happening.

And to the ppl in your life and the ppl that love you, You are not just another brick. You are unreplaceable. just like Naleena said, you are unique in every way. There is not another person like you on this planet anywhere. You to have a purpose in this life and you to like every one else deserves to be happy.

Moor on your doctor

Your doctor would have seen many cases like yours and would not be shocked at all by what you show him are tell him. He would have probably seen someone else with the same problem as you with in the last week. You would have no need to be embraced about seeing the doctor.

Also again the doctor is not allowed to say anything about what he knows about you. He/she would lose there job if they did. Not that the doctor would even think its that of an important thing to talk with anyone else. I mean they see this all the time and especially with younger ppl like yourself. I would say the absolute best thing you could do is to make an apartment with your doctor and tell him what you have told us here. You would not be wasting there time. Its what there their for.

This post was last modified: 06-19-2008 06:25 PM by Bluey.

just an update to people i found a good way to feel better
going to the gym
i work out until i can't work out anymore, than i work out some more
at the end i'm so exhausted a feel so amazing that i go to bed happy

Exercise is a great way to feel better. Its something that almost always makes me feel better when I can get the motivation to work out.

Good on ye mate That's good to know you are finding other things instead of the cutting

some people need to let out their feelings in a more physical way.
but please be careful, it's more addicting that you'd think, hurting yourself to release those inner pressures.

another update i borke up with her today
and its been over a year that we were going out