Long time no post <3

I've spent the night looking up old friends from school in Facebook, or people I cared about once (and thought they cared about me).

I found profiles from people I knew in school, from when i was the age of 6 - 14. They're all grown up now, moving on, having fun, getting the good jobs and the perfect groups of friends and partners...

I've never felt so left behind and alone in my life.

And I did this to myself, I isolated myself from a young age and they forgot about me. I stopped growing up at that stage, i got stuck in the awkward phase and now I can't get out of it. When I see their faces in the pictures, I can't even imagine them "grown up", I still think of them when I last saw them... ugh. They are all like different people now, the quiet ones have photos of their selves in parties, falling over drunk and having amazing times, the loud bitchy ones seem to have grown up and suddenly become sensible, going to top Universities.

I've freaked myself out seeing all of them after all of these years, and they've all grouped up and become one giant circle of friends. And I'm here, without a soul in the world sitting in all night creeping around facebook and looking at photos of people who don't even remember me.

I want so badly to start over. Disappear, become someone new and start over. I wish I had a friend or a boyfriend or anything. Just someone to be there, it pisses me off that no matter how hard i try to get out of this hole, I just fall flat on my face over and over. This damn cycle will never end. In Uni, I meet people but they've all got their own friends. They say hi, then we go our own ways and that's that. They don't need new friends so why should I bother?

I hate Facebook. :/

I can relate to some of this. Going on facebook makes me feel depressed..seeing all my old 'friends' so happy and successful. I have over 200 'friends' on facebook, but haven't had a new wall post in nearly half a year. I'd write a longer reply, but I'm tired and going to bed.

Sleep on it, maybe you'll feel better in the morning.

I can't stand Facebook, and I don't understand why people do.
But maybe I'm being judgemental. Facebook just gives me the creeps for some reason.

I have made an account, just because I wanted to look at a friends (who's living far away) and my sister's pictures. After I did that there have been some people wanting to become friends, including my childhood/teen bullies *shudders*

It's the fakeness and social status thing that I don't like about it I think. I never use it, if I want contact with a friend or sister I call them. I will share pics of memorable events in my life maybe, but not every party etc. I've been to, like most people do.

I sometimes feel like you do Panda, stuck in old patterns and insecurities from the past. Right now I feel paralyzed and unmotivated and because of that I sometimes worry about the future and what will become of me because I'm not doing anything.
I think my paralysis is because of those old patterns of insecurity that I haven't worked through yet, the voice in the head sometimes says that I won't do something well enough for example. And the proof of that is that, as you, I have tried but failed so many times.

All I'm concentrating on now though is just working on myself and these insecurities that might be the reason why I fail at things anyway, logical right. And it feels good to do so and learn to (truly) love myself. I'm rediscovering myself, I am really not these insecurities.

Know that you are really not these negative feelings and insecurities, they are just conditioning. The real you never changes and is spirit or awareness itself.

I don't know if this advice is helpful and you might not want spiritual advice. It is only the way I'm helping myself. I have had a strong yearning for truth since I was 17 and am now starting to discover who I am.

i'm sorry i have the same problem with facebook as well. It's weird i don't why i bother. Nothing happens no one messages me. I get friend requests from people who don't even talk to me. Just becuase we go to the same school doesn't mean we're friends.

Something i hate about people which i hope someone will disprove for me, is that friendsship is made and continues through convience, not loyality. No one will drive the extra 2 miles, or dial those extra seven numbers to keep in touch or hang out. we'll stay long so lang as we have the same classes, differnt schedule means differnt universe. Good-bye

No one actually says hey lets be friends. we just let things happen. we work well as lab partners and converse. But we'll never plan to hang out. They've got their friends, and i've got, the internet.

no one does anything on facebook. and im and texting it's the stupidest thing. We just don't like having to meet up and hang out over a cup of coffee, or even talk on the phone. it's so much more high tech, and the more we distance ourselves with eachother when we connect.



if you ever want to add me, I'm nyozeka_sharpie@hotmail.com

maybe we can make our own lonelylifers facebook group where we'll upload photos and do nothing else.

bah humbug

XD

Panda

Try to hang in there...Your a girl and no matter how shy u are, u'll find your knight in shining armor, as for me, it pretty much hopeless. I'm a guy, and I need to do the asking out part, which I don't think I will ever do. Your still young, well I guess were both at the same age, but I don't think you'll be alone forever.

What I said in one of your other threads is true. I do like you, wasn't joking around, It just hard for me to say it even through online. I met so many girls online that I was close to, but I just couldn't admit I like that person, so look where I am at now, and one of them were only 30 minute away from me. Later I found out she like me as well. So I will not put up a front any longer, even if u don't like me pass anything more than just friend, at least you know where I stand.

We have so much in common, I wish I could restart my life over again, but of course that all a bunch of fantasy.

I hope the best for you!


Chris

Thanks guys! *hug*

I slept on it, went to uni earlier and I feel a bit better. I should never look at those things, they just show me what's missing in my life and how others have things I can only dream of (friends, partners, etc).

I guess I have to start over and put those people behind me, I've got 3 years at uni and I'm on speaking terms with most of them in my class (a class of 40), though we aren't exactly "friends" (most of them know i'm painfully quiet..)

I hate facebook, I hate the people on there who collect friends just for the sake of showing off how many friends they have. Does it make them better people? no. Do they take it for granted? definitely. Pisses me off.

Yeah that's how it is with me. I'd be a loyal friend, if someone I called a friend needed help, I'd be there without a doubt. But I never have the chance, nobody wants to be friends for the sake of truly knowing someone and enjoying their company, half of the time they just want friends to up the number on their facebook friend's list.

Aw, Chris! Thank you <3 And for your other post, too! It's true , the nicest people I've spoken to have always been far away, I've never met any genuine people near me who can relate or have a lot in common, it's depressing. x

Facebook? Is that still around?

Why worry about people who don't matter?

You can't change the past, but you can alter the present to control the future.

Focus on building up what you've got now, forget them.

Face book is just a popularity contest. Ive had ppl try and add me who I don't even know. I mean WTF.

You see some ppl on there with like 500 friends. I look at the friends we have in common and am all like what the fuck. He meat that guy once lol. Its like look at me I got lots of friends. Its like a school playground. All front and no honesty at all.

Plus the way the site works is the biggest load of crap I have ever seen.

I agree one big mess of lies.

Hey everyone,

been reading a lot of threads on here last few weeks but this thread finally convinced me to register.

Im so glad to find people who also hate facebook, thought i was on my own!

I tried it a few months ago but after two days i closed my account. I just couldnt understand why people post pictures of thier every move for others to comment on or why people ive never really spoke to want to add me as a freind???

Everyone i know is on there and when i say im not they look at me like im sum kind of wierdo! What a strange world we live in.

Anyway im glad im not alone feeling this