Maybe. And thank you for reading through it.

I don't necessarily know if it just gets better, and much of me significantly rejects the idea of just waiting for things to get better. That's an incredibly passive way to confront life and its probably the easiest way to prolong any sort of misery.

I do believe that I've learned enough that I can fight my way to a better life for myself. Its not been easy, and I feel like I've lost quite a bit of myself in doing so, but there has been some results.

The short of this is really quite simple, I suppose. If you're at the base of a bottomless pit, you cannot get out of it by waiting. But if you can claw, crawl, and kick, maybe you can get somewhere.

And in the end? We really are our own worst enemies. From what I've read of you, I think you have an deep personal familiarity with that.