I'm such a weirdo, I walk off and go sit by myself and play guitar. When I've got my guitar sitting alone at school doesn't bug me at all.
That's not weird at all. That's, well that's just you. Which I would say is a pretty cool and individual you.
When there is nothing to say I would probably just say something totally random that gets everyone thinking am a fruit cake lol Like Did you know that Your body is creating and killing 15 million red blood cells per second?
Anyone weird like me and feel shy, even on a forum?--like someone won't like what I write, judge me because of my age, my tastes, my words, my pathetic attempts at profoundness? I substitute the word school with class, teacher with professor, just so I sound a bit older--it's absolutely idiotic. I read almost everything but I don't reply often because I'm shy--I don't know how to say anything right.
Logic tells me no one cares about me enough to even judge: people are too worried about themselves to go out of their way to condemn me, but it always feels like there are eyes watching every move I make, waiting for me to make a slight blunder.
In person, I can almost cover up my shyness, but it simply turns into aloofness, and it's as if people think that I think I'm too good for them, but I'm not worthy of much of anything.
It's ridiculous. Even on the anonymous internet, I can't be myself; I'm so self-conscious. If I were brave I could be myself, but then I wouldn't really know who to be.
I think your logic is right, partly. People generally think about how they come across, how they are feeling and how things relate to them - that seems to be pretty common. But it's not because they don't care about you, you know, don't fall into that trap of thinking it's because of you - as easy as that is to do! Maybe you have low self-esteem?
I know what you mean about appearing aloof. I worry over the same thing. For my part, i think the cure is simply effort - waking up the friendly, caring and sociable aspects of my personality. And effort has plentiful rewards - but it's all too easy to slip back into to a self-contained insular mode - a state that most people are in i think.
Hang in there, and be good to yourself. If can just borrow from NeverMore's signature for a moment:
You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.
Well, sometimes I want to make a post, but I can't think of anything worthwhile to say, and thus don't post at all...
I am kind of laughing at myself right now. Looking through the forum i notice a number of places where i could make at least a modest little comment but of course my registration hadn't been confirmed so i had to pass on that. Then i notice that maybe i actually can post and instantly my mind goes blank.
Im shy but i dont let anyone notice it but in a forum im not. Btw nobody is weird (just people that follow us in games all the time) Everybody is just... unic orrrr exotic orrrr exentric? (hope its a word... i tried to translate ^.^)
<p><p><p><center><br> <font color=#FF0099><FONT FACE="Comic Sans" SIZE="4">Yesterday.... All my troubles seemed so far away (...you wish )
I feel the same way..I always feel like whatever I say is going to be made fun of. I'm a member of a lot of forums but I'm always just the observer because I'm always afraid to say the wrong thing. I'm trying to overcome it though.
The thing is with me, I often just can't (or am too lazy to) think of anything worth adding to a conversation (this goes for both real life and on forums). I don't think one could call that shy, though perhaps socially retarded.
Also, when I do speak up, I too fear that my words will come back to haunt me in one way or another.
I often feel like everyone gives such good advice on here and they sound so wise,but then i come out with something stupid which probably makes the other person feel even worse lol,so i do tend to hold back.
I often feel like everyone gives such good advice on here and they sound so wise,but then i come out with something stupid which probably makes the other person feel even worse lol,so i do tend to hold back.
Everyone has that feeling even I feel that ways sometimes and remember everything you say or contribute means something.
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