I rarely cry ...but last weekend i got so wasted and was crying...lol..I hate crying

Probably at least once a month for the past year, and a few days ago when me and my girlfriend re-re-re-broke up. It makes me feel a lot more optimistic a few hours later.

Oh yeah, and when cutting onions. Those damn onions! *tear*

Lately it's like a couple of times a week : (
and here's why:
I lost my job, I lost my apt., my relationship sucks!, I have no friends, I have no income, and I'm stuck living back at my mom's again

Geez, when will it get better?! :/

I've only cried a couple of times in the past few years. Once, when my mother was really sick and I thought she was going to lose her leg (diabetic complications). The second, when I hated my life and was on the verge of ending it.

My mother's fine now. My life still sucks, but I'm far too lazy to kill myself. Besides, I'm tired of all the drama associated with loneliness and depression.

It been really rough lately...

I'm getting toward the end of my first year in college and it just feel like high school all over again minus the bullying, but the loneliness is still there.

More often than a Twenty year old boy should, that's for sure.

Rarely, but when I do, it's at the most random of times. No matter how hurt I'm feeling, I can't even cry when loved ones die. I guess my emotions have gotten down-regulated from constant turmoil. My eyes start to well up when I see innocent children with their parents, or when I hear a certain song after a long time. Alcohol can also bring it out, but only if I'm away from everyone else. I actually break down hysterically when something kinda good happens, because that is a rarity. I've never shed a tear in front of anyone but my parents, and that was a long time ago.

I don't keep alcohol in the house no longer. Not cos I have a problem with it just if its in and am feeling bard or lonely I drink and it never makes me feel better. I always end up getting depressed. So know I don't keep it in.

Last night I really felt like a beer. Am glad I did not have any in cos I would have gone from happy to sad in 30 minutes flat. cert take the beer you see. Am a lightweight.

You would be surprised mate.

Now how many ppl, men espeshely that you know are going to admit they cry? Probably there is a lot moor then you think that do.