I'd love to, but I don't know how. I think you may have a point about the closure thing, it's probably why I'm still searching for her actually.

Shogun,

Here is a suggestion for closure.

Take a piece of paper and write everything you want to say to her.
Once you are done, put it in an envelope, seal it and burn it.
This way you will get it out of your system.

Also, the reason why your love was so strong was not solely because of her. You are a man who is capable of giving a lot of love. This means you can share the same strong and beautiful emotions with another special woman.

If you need to talk, you can pm me anytime.
Hope you feel better.

CG.

People like Shogun and myself will always struggle to forget our previous partners, because we have no one else in our lives to replace the love we have lost

Hey, this is exactly what I'm going through (read my thread posted in relationships) Though I'm still in contact with my ex.

It's easy for someone to say "Just let go of her", but you don't want to let go. You want that specific person to be a part of your life, but they won't be & for me that's x10 worse than just being lonely. You can always have someone to talk to if you really wanted, but you can't make that person be apart of your life anymore and it's one of the hardest things (for me) to accept.

Though if you read my thread I'm not ready to accept that, but I'm too scared to let her know how I feel about her.

It's tough though since you can't find any contact information on her maybe you should move on, if you keep this up you'll just hit a dead end. And I know that if you have that much feeling and desire for someone replacing them with just anybody won't do. You'll have to find another person that made you feel like she did, if that's even possible.

Just know that I completely understand what you're going through and how you feel. I hope that alone makes you feel better in knowing you're not alone on this.