I miss the way she would lay on me while I was on the couch and stare into my eyes and tell me that I could never love her more than she loves me...She Lied!
I miss the way she would sneak into the shower to copp a feel just whnen the soap was sopped into my eyes and then kiss me as the warm water would pulse down my back.....
I miss the calls at my work just to tell me she was thinking about me and wanted me to quit my job and come home and stay locked in the house forever, and the notes she would leave in my lunch....
I miss the way I was touched...and the words that would whisper like a symphony in my head and to my heart..I miss her
Everytime I drive by our old place I change and all the sudden nothing is important..I lost what was important. I miss the times when I was singin at a gig I always had my no.1 fan in the corner ready to take me home.
I miss the sex and making love I miss hearing her singing in the bathroom after making love and knowing that she was singing for me
I miss the smell of her long black curly hair in my face while we lie together in sleep and the touch of her warm thigh gently placed on top of my right leg.
I miss the talks about growing old and chasing her with a hard on and my dentures lol and then taking a long walk with our cat Poos...
I miss movie night and then sitting and downloading music together...
I miss us reading each other a book in the bed at night.
I miss my Srepaph-she was my angel-she was my day into the night-I loved her more than all the stars in the sky-and now shes gone.



Never again will I look into those beautiful brown eyes
Never again will I kiss those soft delicate lips
Never again will I feel like a god among men.
She talks to me in my mind and keeps me sane and then reality kicks in...
I miss you and I'll never forgive u... Goodbye my Love..Goodbye
My heart is broken and yet both halves still burn for u
And I hate u for that...
My soul is shattered and each piece cast your reflection in the river of my tears..
And you will never truly know how much u hurt me.
So Goodbye

I know how you feel,,,my ex crept into my dreams bad last night, 2 years and she still haunts me, though I deal with it better nowdays, it still hurts.

Damn haunting ex's! It's bad enough that they hurt us - but it is even worse that even after they are gone - they continue to hurt us! Although mine isn't an ex yet - he may as well be. I don't know what is harder - living with them or without them. It is now 9 at night - and I have yet to see Eric. I suspect he is at the bar. I've been calling him but he is not answering his phone. I am sitting here - drinking a beer alone... listening to music... trying hard not to cry... I wish somebody could come over and hang out with me...

By the way KrossKnife - your words are so beautiful... I wish I could write like....

Thank you for the kind words
I wish the same thing that someone could come over that understands me and I could talk and have a good time with, but that will not be for a long while. And when the wound heals I still have to learn to trust and repect myself more Ty again all last night when I wrote this it was all I could do from seeing her, It is so hard when the women u love wants you , but she has no problem hurting u.

Wow.. Sounds just like Eric.. He freaking packed my lunch today and ironed my shirt.. I left my lunch at home and he brought it to me at work.. and then turns around and tells me what a peice of shit I am and tells me that he doesn't love me.. and then says he loves me.. and then says he doesn't.. It's like - pick one and go for it! Well - I am too afraid to ask him to lay it on the line.. I'm afraid of what he might tell me..

Which is better then? Living in a state of unbalance, or living at peace but all alone? One brings you so high up, then drops you just as low, the other leaves you in a state of mundaneness.

Ask him to lay it on the line, because not having honesty in a relationship is... well you might as well be alone so you can be free to meet new people without obligation, responsibility or guilt.

I just want to be happy..... I don't expect miracle - but just some self respect... He will be sorry...

I say nay!! First of all no man should say those things to the women he loves, because it does not only hurt you it hurts him as well. And if he persists to treat u this way, do the hard thing... I did and its only been 2-3 months and it still kills me. But there is a certain satifaction in my dignity/far be it it ROYALLY sucks to be alone. At least I did what i tht was right. It sounds like Eric is pushing u away on purpose some kind of set up if u will.Not implying anything but somethin is really fishy here I dont understand why he can be that way u sound like a great women who takes care of her man. I am gonna steal ur old post quote again because I like sayin it lol. This world is F-Up.

Omg, the way you wrote it is too painful to read. >_<

I dunno how to help you... need to control your thoughts etc.. but you probably know that already.

You are very creative at expressing yourself... try to focus on that maybe. =) Write a story?