I'd go back and tell a 5 years old kid and tell him.."it's going to be all F-up kid...so hang on to your ass".lol Just joking. I'd tell him to follow your heart and tell her you love her.
I'd hold her in my arms and tell her much I really love her. I'd tell her that I love her so much when I asked me if I love her. I play this moment over and over again in my head...i feel like going out of my god damn mind sometimes. She's dead, there's nothing i can do or say to change it. Maybe she still be alive and we're rasing our childred like we both wanted.
This post was last modified: 08-19-2008 10:15 PM by Lonesome Crow.
i would go back to 7th grade and try to keep my sister home so she would would still be here.
Oh man... I'm really sorry about your sister
Here is what I would do.
I would tell myself not to dump Risa because of the fact that we didn't have transportation. It didn't seem to be working at the time... But man I really liked her. I told her that we could get back together when we had some means of getting there. She said yes. But that never happened... I still see her around too.
I would tell myself to get Lauren's number. Maybe then... When her computer got fried by a thunderstorm I could have called her. Maybe if that had happened... Our six month void of not talking wouldn't have happened and she wouldn't have gotten her boyfriend. I could tell her in advance to apply to colleges around here, and not be forced to go to Ohio to pursue her path. Maybe then we would be in love... Together right now. That is what I want most to change.
I would have told myself to not take that walk in 5th grade. I wouldn't have chipped my two front teeth.
I would have told myself to not tell on that preppy girl that pushed me down... Causing me to get lower back problems. I could have gotten the chiropractic adjustment that I got and just not have said anything... Then maybe that whole school wouldn't hate me now.
I would have told myself to not crash my first car. NO! Even though you are having a bad day DO NOT LOOK DOWN! YOU WILL CRASH CHRIS!
I would tell myself to always go the speed limit, and I would tell myself the exact day that I would have normally gotten my speeding ticket. Maybe I would have been driving the whole summer. This was some summer... No license . But I am getting my license back on the 27th. So... Not much more waiting.
I would have gotten Audrey's phone number. That way, I might have been able to prevent her third... and I think successful suicide attempt. I had prevented her first two... Maybe things would be different for me now. She wasn't very far away from me.
I would have told myself about my current best friend Warren. I would also go to his house as my present self and tell him all about me, and how we are best friends in the future. I know it would scare him... But things would have been a lot better for me back then. I might have not tried to commit suicide or have been so depressed.
I would have told myself about this website. Honestly. I would have been a lot more sane if I knew this place existed.
My last thing. I would have told myself to get Bonnie's screen name or phone number. We are seemingly a perfect match... But she has a boyfriend now -_-. Things would have been a lot different.
I would have kept my cat inside that one night. Maybe he wouldn't have been run over. RIP Tiger .
Sing like no one's listening, love like you've never been hurt, dance like nobody's watching, and live like its heaven on earth.
The deepest craving of human nature is the need to be appreciated. -William James
Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways. -Stephen Vincent Benet
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease I'm a goddess on my knees When you hurt, when you suffer I'm your angel undercover I've been numb, I'm revived Can't say I'm not alive You know I wouldn't want it any other way