Hi, I'm new, hello everyone

I'm feeling shy, even posting here, about my loneliness.
I very rarely talk about my loneliness to anyone, and to very few people, when I do, I usually end up crying, so it has to be someone really close, like my mom for example. I avoid talking about it to much because I feel like I will be a burden.

I've been lurking around here while waiting for my activation mail, and I see that I can openly talk about loneliness here and all the feelings and thoughts that come with it. It is unusual, in a positive way
I really can't understand why I haven't thought about it before, going on a forum where people have experienced the same loneliness as I have, but I'm glad I finally did

What I found relieving was the threads about thoughts people go through, and I thought I was the only one having those thoughts and feelings! I guess that's what many lonely people also think, that they're the only ones with those thoughts and feelings. One example is "there must be something seriously wrong with me" or "am I a bad person". (Not that I was glad that other people were going through the same, it actually made me cry because I feel for you)We're lonely but not alone in our loneliness.

I feel like this can be my safe haven where I can share these things.

Welcome Droplet,

What you've said is shared by so many, so I hope you find the support and friendship you want here.

hiya drop. im so glad u found us. welcome aboard. & oh luv the picture thingy

Some of the things I've said on this forum I wouldn't even tell a therapist. I love the pseudo anonymity it provides. It's incredibly unlikely that anyone I know would ever stumble upon this forum and realize who I am.

In real life I can be a shiny, happy, person to strangers but they will never know the torture I go through every single day. On this forum it can go straight from my head to the keyboard without fear being judged and ridiculed.

I have clinical depression, nothing caused it, I can't "just snap out of it", I cannot be cured, and I must live every day with a slight feeling that I shouldn't be here in this world. On this website I can actually talk about.

Thankk you for your warm welcome

I don't think there is anything wrong with us really, but what is it about us? Are we simply to shy? Or what?

I have people telling me (if I tell them I'm shy), for example my sister, that I don't seem shy at all. But there is this feeling inside, an uncomfortable feeling of uncertainty that makes me feel very limited, .It filters my mind, like a war in my head saying "oh no, you can't say that!" untill my mind goes completely empty and I don't know what to talk about, I then can go quiet, and people can find me boring, or I talk about silly stuff... It's like this filter is doing exacly opposite to what it intends to do, makes me seem more stupid or wierd.

There are these few precious moments where I completely relax and conversation flows, and people like me alot then, almost too much, like from getting no attention to getting all the attention....

Honestly, I think it's all about self confidence. I am far too worried about what people think to even really express myself. Online it's the complete opposite, I know I'll probably never meet any of you, so I don't care what I say. I wish I could take the confidence I have online and use it in the real world.

I get that all the time! And I always thought that's some conversational skill problem or something like that, that I have. But I don't know, I've been thinking it's not, it's just something that hits you when it wants to. Like I've got no control of it, I'd just blank out in my mind and don't know what to say. And people tell me I'm shy, but believe me, I can talk a lot when that little problem doesn't pop up in my head.

Heya Droplet, I'm new here too!!! You've just put exactly how I feel into words!! I'm soo thankful to know there's other people who go through the same as me... thank you!

Hi Droplet, and welcome to the forum.

Hi again.

I just want to say that I think letting my boyfriend reply to a thread (just because I thought it would help more if a man answered) was a mistake. I'm saying that because now I feel like it may have ruined my reputation on here (maybe you'll get confused, like, who is answering), and I just want it to be me answering from now, as I don't always agree with all of my boyfriends views, after all we are different people. I want this to be my safe haven, I won't let my boyfriend butt in anymore

Also, after his post I now feel shy and embaressed because of some of the things he wrote (about me) which I personally thought was abit pointless...

Anyway, I hope to get my courage back and be able to open up on this forum.

Thanks