Of this site that is, I just need some time way right now. Here are my reasons, I'm not good enough at putting together thoughts or writing essay style to make actual paragraphs. (or I guess I just dong give a f....)


I can't take reading negative, sarcastic or degrading responses in threads any more. I even did this myself, I know, I'm a walking contradiction, but at least I admit it.

I have issues with falling for pretty girls who are nice, their is way too many on this website who are friendly to me. Just because they are friendly or jokingly flirt with me, I feel like I have a chance of actually being with them...obviously unrealistly. Not being able to get a lonely girl to be with you is pretty sad.


Chat just depresses me now, people can be rude, inconsiderate, vulgar and sexually frustrating to me. I also act like this at times, yet again...I'm hipocritical, but at least I can admit it.


There's people I've met on here who I thought I was close to but just do the same thing as everyone else I thought was close to me did. Saying they'll be back later to talk to me or they'll email me and they dont, or simply not caring as much about me as I do about them, which leads me to my next point.


I think I get too attatched to people who I've never even met, I've even thought about if I love (as a friend) a few people on here. I highly doubt those people feel the same way about me and the fact of the matter is, people on the internet disapear, get lives, or get unlonely.


People say negative things about me, call me fat, ugly, low life, say I only talk to the girls on here to fuck them without even giving me a chance to get to know me. I can't deal with that negativety right now. I hear it enough in real life from my brother, I thought this was a place where I didn't have to worry about those things when I first joined.



I need to focus on bettering myself, I need to get a learners license, which will eventually lead to a drives license, lose weight, quit smoking and gain confidence in myself. This site (all though you guys try, I know you do) doesn't help me, I waste all my time sitting in chat talking shit or reading posts on the forum.


The majority of the people I have met on here and have added me os msn dont even message me, I have to message them. This leads me to believe that I am not as important to them as they are to me. I know people are busy, but I feel like the "how are you" doesn't even matter at this point. People dont even care enough to ask how the quitting smoking is going, although I ask people about events in their lives (if they are improving). No this isn't why I'm leaving this site, this is just something that depresses me, so you can better understand where I'm at.



I'm sorry if I seem selfish, and maybe some of you dont want me to leave, you'll miss me maybe...we can still talk, add me on msn I'll put my email below, just please dont ask to me why I left. I think I made it clear as to why. I will be back...I just need some time off, I'm in a very dark place right now and wont be able to contribute anything positive back to you guys anyway. Thanks for taking the time to read this and taking the time to get to know me or give me a chance to those who did, I hope to hear from you soon. Get better soon everyone, I'll pray for you.

Drake


email: drake_411@hotmail.com

Sometimes I don't feel like reading all the negative stuff. And there is a lot of it on here. Well-there is boned to be on a site for the lonely. But I think we all felt like crap when we first got here. Its not a lot of peoples normally altitude who are here. There are some very posivtive ppl here. I am only down 10% of the time. The ppl that know me IRL would put me in a box based on that. ppl here do not. They understand that you can feel down sometimes but 90% time your a happy person.

So ye what am trying to say is I know where your coming from and when I get like that I meas around with the fun topics and stay away from the other ones.

BTW I smoked for 10 years. I tried and stopped many times be for I manged it. Doesn't matter if you have one or two or even a pack one night. just stop and carry on as you did be for. Ive been stopped 3 years in february
And ye am proud of myself that I could stop. I feel better for it as well. And I got a little moor cash in me pocket or god knows where it gows but I Guss I have somewhere lol. It gets easier ofter two weeks I think.

Never give up on giving up

How is it going BTW?

This post was last modified: 11-06-2008 05:06 AM by Bluey.

We will miss you, Drake. I understand you have to do some things in your life. I wish the best Please remember to come back and visit.

Hurry back dude.

Take your time. We'll still be here.... or at least I will. :/