Suppose you'll be wanting that paint now

but of course!

**Looks around .....Runs off**

This post was last modified: 06-13-2008 12:27 AM by Bluey.

I know you feel better now and thats good, but what a great post, in that it is just how I feel most days. I am a fellow depressive (I find most of the meds pretty useless). The first paragraph is spookily similar to my own thoughts.

I think I'll take extra meds and sleep longer...........

Thanks...I try to be creative when beating myself up.

Yeah, I've tried going the medication route but never found anything that didn't make me a zombie or just plain crazy. Oh well.

Never apologise for posting what you really feel...that is the entire point of us being here. We can say what we think and read what others think...without fear of being made to feel a fool.

You said you felt you didn't offer anything...re-read you thread and decide by the responses...do you really believe that you don't offer anything...because all those people who have replied know what you have offered!!

This is exactly right. This is what this place is all about.

Again, So true.

Sometimes you can do nothing but to say you know what mate, I agree with everything you just said

Everyone here is great, but outside of this little world is a slightly different story. I spend the majority of my day completely invisible to everyone around me. It's only a matter of time before a person in this situation begins to question the value of existing at all. A lot of people are perfectly comfortable just being on the planet and breathing. I need a little more than that.

It probably wouldn't be so bad if there was someone at home that could provide validation that I have some sort of meaning and "matter"...but there's nothing.

So I come here, make silly posts and joke about goofy things just to avoid having a nervous breakdown.

There seems to be countless types and some people seem to have some success with them. I was never so lucky. Even the ones that didn't turn me into a zombie had drawbacks. The most annoying and possible dangerous for me was the one that turned all lights into a blurred star burst. Couldn't tell the difference between a green traffic light and a green arrow.

I am glad that you are feeling better.

Yeah, that would be a bit difficult to deal with. I just don't trust a lot of the medication available for depression. Plus, a lot of the doctors around here don't seem to know what they're doing. It worries me when I know more about my problem than the physician supposedly treating me. I'm not saying I'm smart, just that they often seem really clueless.