I think that Your state of mind actually is called being depressed, Qui, (though it might not be a "deep" depression) because a depression comes naturally when You've been feeling bad for a long time (the trait itself is time-based as well as mood-based).
who are depressed can have, which sure can make them do horrible things themselves, they are just as mentally stable as anyone; a shrink is not the indefinite solution to any depression. Even if they would try one out, and even if they would become relatively glad again for many months, if the reason for why they became depressed in the first place isn't taken care of they will just go back to that horrible state and probably be having worse thoughts about it than before, i'm sure.

I think that depression almost always is caused by the lack of social contact of some sort, which i'm sure alot of people here would say as well. I would say it like this; life sucks if You don't have someone around You who You can do anything You want with and share everything You want with. It may be because of our reproductive instinct, but that instinct sure is trying to aim us the right way; love is heaven itself!

The source of the problem that most of the people here have (and around the world!) is that (almost) none of us are taught how to be social or why it's important. Since love, for example, makes You feel so much better about life and makes You able to get up and start working to reach Your dreams, i think it's plain stupid that social learnings aren't a bigger part of school. These days, when it obviously is hard for the minorities (and the people who think they are a minority; "weird") to be happy to be themselves, it's no wonder that people think life is hard and sucks!

It's true that You must work Yourself to have the life that You want, and that's why depression is so dangerous since it makes You inactive, uninterested to most things and mentally too tired to try and do anything about it by Yourself. Makes the lack of social learnings make even more sense. I can't say that our parents don't try to teach us these things (i've only had one pair of parents who didn't teach me a thing) but whatever they're doing, it isn't enough. We must be taught to understand that socializing is important and a possibility even for the people who feel "weird" and special.

"I've tried to blame the way I feel on my parents and other people but in the end I'm the one who feels that way, not them."

Oh does that sound familiar; doesn't matter who's fault it is, You won't feel any better if it's someone else's fault. True.

All the people who are here... i don't think this is some base for "the weird" or anything, every human being will go through a period of loneliness, and i think that no matter which kind of problems that made people come here, they are just as normal as any glad person but have been facing their problems for a too long time. There's no general reason to say a person who's lonely is a failure, but i understand how it can feel like it... there's a lot of unseen feelings and thoughts that pop up when You become depressed that You didn't have before.

If total freedom for socialization isn't an option for a person, seeking for like-minded people and finding a group You feel welcome and important in is one of the absolutely most important things You can do in Your life.

Life is not supposed to feel this way. The problem is, we're just very unlucky.

I've always felt lonely and this didn't really hit me until I was an adult. I tried really hard to make friends but I was very awkward and no one really wanted to talk to me. I made a few friends when I went to college, but it was superficial. When I look around me, I notice that most of my family members are lonely and unhappy. Most of what we deal with is due to genetics, with some of it due to the environment. If there's anything I've learnt from life, it's that luck has everything to do with your own happiness. If you're doomed from the start, then there's really nothing you can do. The people out there who seem happy and vibrant are just extremely lucky. If you were born as a poor kid in a Third World country, there's pretty much nothing you can do about it. If you were born a Hilton, then you're destined for a great life.

I don't think there's any point in blaming anyone either. I used to do that, but it didn't really make me feel better. After this long period of loneliness, we start to feel numb and become more and more detached from society. We become disinterested in the things that used to make us happy, we care less and less about our future, and the downward spiral pretty much keeps going and going.

I think depression is such a blanket term. People are pretty amazing; no two people are exactly alike so I have trouble using such terms to blob different personalities together. I think everyone has something to give to society but also everyone needs their society to help them out too. People are social creatures, we need attention. We can't develop properly without someone to notice us. But it isn't right to blame out problems on other people because they don't notice us. Loneliness happens when you have trouble connecting with other people. I don't find that to be remarkably weird. After all, this entire website is directed to us, right?