about 3 years ago i fell in love with this girl, it was my freshman year in high school.i dont know what it was about her,all i knew was that i was willing to do anything for her, i still am. just recently we started to go out. it didnt last long about 2 weeks. during that time i was honestly happy. a feeling that has been absent in my life for a long time. she broke my heart yesterday. she was the only person in the world that i honestly believed understood me. i trusted her. i dont trust alot of people in the world, but she was one of them. she betrayed me she made out with her ex while we were going out. i dont understand. im not a bad guy. pain has been a part of my life for along time now. and just when i thought that its was going to go away forever. this happens. i lose her after 3 years of trying, standing by her threw everything. after she put me threw hell. shes driven me to the breaking point, many times before, and she usually puled me back. this time though im not sure. i lived for the one i loved, now that shes gone i cant find a reason to go on anymore. ive been trying but my mind contiues to go back to suicide. this is my first post here. the only reason ive actually posted here is from what ive read, alot of people are like me, hurting.threw al this though i still find myself saying" i love her" we decided to stay freinds, but still did i deserve this? ive done somethings im not proud of but they wernt bad enough to be hurting so much......ive tried to look on the bright side of things but it dosnt seem to help much. i skipped school to gather my thoughts. didnt do much for me, just made me feel like crap all over again.
your post is really tripping me out because thats exactly what happened to me. even the time line. only that she tried to hook up with me again after we broke up but i said no because she was going out with my other friend (with whom i only get wasted with, not a true friend.) but then she hooked up with my best friend in front of my face few years later....and right now i feel exactly the same way you do. maybe worse. i tried to off myself with bunch of stuff but figured out in the end, suicide makes you look like a coward. the only way out my friend is to be strong. the only way of "getting them back" is to be strong. think of this way, these people dont deserve you. they just dont. its not you, its the people that mess you up. why kill youself over these puny maggots? be strong. shes an idiot for doing that shit. and you are over it. get a better one to make her pissed and realize how wrong and how much of a fucked up person she was.
or a better idea, just be over her and move on.
no one fuckin deserve this shit, fuckin no one. (scuse me french) espcially genuine people like us. it grinds my gears when people do this shit to other people. when you never intended any harm whatsoever.
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