I can understand how you're feeling. I too am without any real life friendship. I have not had a friend at all in over 11 years. My husband has been my only outlet. All I can offer is to think positive. There will be somebody out there who will find you interesting and funny and everything else it takes to have a great friend. It never happens overnight. We also tend to lose touch with people, or our tastes change as the years go and we get very busy and forget the things that are important to us. Try to make contact with some of your friends just to test the water. If they don't understand, then think about how close that friendship really was. Good luck to you and I'll be thinking good thoughtd for you.

hopefully this is only temporal. i guess all i can do is keep on going like lonelydude said... ive always failed, but i need to kepp my head up. turning 21 today and spending most of the time by myself... lifes great.

Dont ever feel like a failure, dont ever count yourself out, never underestimate yourself. The minute you do that , uve lost everything. Hang in there, sometimes life changes things around you that you are unable to change or get over initially, but eventually you do.

What im doing to "fix" my life is take all the negative things out. You know, stuff that doesnt make u happy. This makes a very very large difference. Just try and stay focused on not letting anything disturb/rattle you, and eventually ull be rid of this dilemma. Trust me , its only temporal , it only gets permanent IF YOU LET IT TO BE! Stay happy, enjoy what you have , get rid of what you dont like. Everyone has bad times in their life, just think of this time as the bad time in ur life and that itll be over soon