MisunderstoodVacancy

I live in a strange self-imposed matrix of isolation, self-hatred, and regret. Despite this I am not necessarily sad per se, just in dire need of redefining myself, becoming more actively engaged/interested about things, and establishing certain loose ends that haven't been resolved as of yet. I'm not sure if I have depression or am just absurdly lazy. If self loathing was a viable occupation, I'd actually have a 401k. Leaving the house more to "socialize" would probably help, but that's how the monsters get you..
I don't really have significant interests or much going for me at the moment, it is difficult to fully relate or connect to people for this reason, so most of the time I don't bother. I want to be better at making/keeping friends though, and I want to feel better about and more comfortable in my own skin, but this seems like a quite monumental task. I also wish to be more fully engaged in something I love, whatever that might be. I'd like to acquire some type of rewarding career but that would require basic competence as a human being.
I like stand up comedy, absurdity, and just being a childish goof.

I'm dissapointed there's no option to indicate B.C. on your profile's birthdate, this strikes me as discrimination against reincarnated ancient shamans and lonely immortal spirits who through a strange twist of fate actually have wifi in their residence of haunting. But I guess to be a true social justice warrior towards this issue I'd have to turn to tumblr.