You're not wrong. In hindsight, I have been deeply examining and analyzing past events; his personality, my personality, the circumstances, etc. I have so far narrowed it down to two things: feeling undeserving of receiving love, and a severe fear of helplessness (or aligning myself with things...
Being dependent. I don't mean for it to happen, but it always does. And then I find myself panicking about what I'm going to do and how I'm going to survive now that this person is suddenly gone. I want very desperately to be independent, to avoid all that havoc at the end (and it's a major...
In answer to the original question: I have a personality disorder and attachment issues.
I am currently internally beating the ever living snot out of myself because I had about the best friend anyone could ever wish for (no, he was not a perfect human being, but he had a golden heart and was...
I'm in the Bob Lee and Speak-volumes boat. I'm deeply introverted (though, when I get comfortable with someone I can seem quite extroverted - with that particular person), quiet; quirky. I prefer quality over quantity. This is apparently at odds with what is currently socially acceptable.
I...
I like "emotional tourist" as well. "Zen of Bad Experience" is also very catchy. :D
This type sets my teeth on edge, too. It's almost like the child who is extra nice to the parent. "Okay, what do you want this time?" That's just my cynical opinion based on personal experience and observation...
You're not alone. I'm also in that boat (I have only have one friend to my name, and I think he feels pity for me more than anything else; that is my colored-thought assessment), except with a cat instead of a dog.
Best wishes that things improve for you soon. That pendulum has to swing...