can u please try to expalin that magnificent phenomenon?

but then there are people that want me dead, and I am not gonna do them that favor lol

That happens to me too, very often in fact. I get this huge surge of anger come over me, because of one thing or another, then it just kind of goes away an hour later. I know this is a sign of emotional instability, but still have done nothing about it.

I understand this discription totally. Though I think it relates to a great many other things then just anger.

True true.

I just dont know how to explain it more then I have. Like I said, I get angry but instead of going crazy and like exloding type of thing it kind of implodes or goes inwards, and as the reaped one says its gone within an hour and yea I'm pretty sure it is a sign of instability or something like that.

And I agree with skorian, its not just anger that this happens with

I don't know about you, but when I was a kid growing up. No one in our house was really allowed to express themselves at all. My father was always so out of control that when ever he was around we all generally retreated to our own corners. Well, this was in the later year's when we were all older. When I was very young I was nasty and would mimic the behavior I saw and took alot of things out on my brothers. It wasn't till high school that I started to outright hate and dispise him and completely shut him off because I started to really realize he was a monster and I didn't want to be like that. We were more like a house of hate then a family.

I wasn't allowed to make to much noise or I was screamed at or worse. We weren't allowed to talk when he was around or we were screamed at or worse. Weren't allowed many times to play near him or we were screamed at or worse. Often if you bumped him or tryed to play with him he would hurt us. When we had meals at the table, which our mother basically forced us into (Not that we knew at the time that it could be any other way, though we should have eaten seperate meals from our father looking back) we were forced to sit and listen to only him talk about how rotten his day was (I would guess we got about a 1 hour dose of that brainwashing a day). How he picked fight's with this person or that person. How everyone in the world were all assholes. How work sucked. How mad he was at this or that. This wasn't something that happened only once in a while. This happened almost every meal for years.

To me I kind of think that it's sort of like I have a hard time sometimes knowing what is appropriate for this or that situation, since I didn't see much of it. It's like it has all been repressed inwards rather then outwards as a result of hiding so much when I was a child. It's a learned habbit and when I feel thing's I am hit by fear rather then being able to just express something. That fear sometimes bring's along with it anger at myself. Just from the sheer frustration of it all.

So I guess I wonder if you had some sort of simular experiance.

Well my rage developed from years of being picked on and bullied at school. As i stated earlier i was gonna pull a columbine stunt but i dident have acceces to guns. And my parents treated me like a mental patient. Not too mention being the only virgin to graduate HS. I never even been with a woman till i was 20. And now, well lets just say life isent any better and the anger and rage continues to grow stronger. I try to supress it with weed and other tranquilizers.

Hey skorian,

Yes I am similar to that in a way. My dad would and still does frown upon any display of to much emotion (although he frequently displays plenty himself)

Its like he wanted me to be some type of robot that dosnt feel anything or something like that. Maybe it was his way of trying to protect me from getting hurt, just done in a very warped manner.

But yea now I find that all my emotions are more suppressed when anybody is around, although when I'm by myself I tend tend to let them out a bit more.

So yea maybe my upbringing has something to do with it

Sorry to hear that Tire. Maybe if you think more about why you feel the way you do you can figure out that it's not exactly what you think it is. You should also be careful with some of these assumptions I suspect that you made about some things you mention.

Sorta seems like you are in denial and bottleing it all up and letting it out in self harming ways. If you have a concience and hurt others with your anger, you will only make yourself more angry. For one because you will treat other's in ways where they will respond in ways that make you even more angry. In the end you will build your own wood pile to roast yourself on.