IM A VERY DISTRUBED INDIVIDULE. i HAVE ANGER AND DEPRESSION TROUBLES. THOUGHTS OF VIOLENCE AND DEATH ARE CONSTENLY IN MY MIND EITHER I WANNA KILL MYSELF OR SOMEONE ELSE. iVE ATTEMPTED SUICIDE MANY TIMES, IVE NEVER HARMED ANYONE BUT THERE WERE TIMES I WANTED TOO SO BADLY I COULD TASTE IT. mY OWN FAMLY THINKS IM PSYCHO BUT THEY MADE ME THIS WAY.mY LIFE SUCKS AND SO DOSE MYJOB. tHE GOOD IN ME IS STRONG BUT IS WEAKENING. i MAY BECOME THE NEXT TED BUNDY. iF ANYONE OUT THERE THINKS THEY CAN UNDERSTAND ME OR HELP ME. GIVE ME A SHOUT OR A DR WHO DOSE UTHINASIA

What triggers these anger and depressive thoughts, for starters?

Tire,

Do you have some sort of release? You say that the good in you is strong, but weakening. Do you think this is because you feel you're losing control of things around you? What lets you know the good in you is strong? Do you feel part of something greater? I don't know if I can totally understand your specific feelings, but do understand that you need to find a way to deal with these feelings. All of us have feelings of solitude, isolation, or loneliness... some of us more than others.

On a positive note, the fact that you entitled your post "rage" shows that you want to act on you feelings rather than simply keeping them inside. The fact that you sought help here is a good sign. I just hope that you find what you are looking for. Is there anything specific we can do for you?

how old are u now and at what age it started?

Life sucks if anybody hasnt noticed yet.. People have problems, and the only one that can cure it is yourself. Although I have probles of hurting myself and wanting to kill myself.. It is insanely hard to get out of the world in your head that makes u think the way u think but there IS ALWAYS A WAY. even though I havent foud myself yet... plz pm me if u want to talk or just forget it.

Suicide doesn't work. It's very hard to kill yourself.

You're better off making the best of of everyday. It does suck at times but we have to do our time no matter what. That is, unless you want to end up in a nursing home with trach and paralyzed from a suicide attempt. Then you would really be crying about how bad life is.

I mean this with all my heart to try and make the best out of it and get some help.

I'm sorry, but I'd just like to comment on that.
Isn't it amazing that with the fragility of life that a person can fail at killing themself? I just think it's amazing. I was reading the paper this morning, seeing all the notices of people that died yesterday. A man fell out of his boat, died of hypothermia. A woman drove her car into a tree, died of whatever. There were five or six of them like that. It's so easy to die, it's a miracle every moment we continue to exist.
I think that the reason it's so hard to kill yourself is because no matter how much you want to, your instincts don't want to die. As soon as your conscious mind is hurt enough that it can't subdue your instinctual will to survive then you have to stop. To kill yourself, you have to be dead before those instincts kick in.
And then there's those people that give up and just slip away. Maybe they're sick and just stop fighting it. Or whatever. They don't do anything specifically to kill themself, they aren't trying to die. They just stop living. And no power on earth can save them then, they're gone.
It makes me think, how amazing life is. But at the same time, it's not so monumental. It's just beautifully painful and indescribably sad, so perfectly imperfect that it makes me want to scream and cry, but at the same time I can't stop smiling. It's only important to those that are encompassed by it, but when one sees it objectively, one begins to understand how small and fragile we are, that the only thing that has trouble killing us is ourselves.

that had nothing whatsoever to do with the thread at all, sorry.
Back on topic, go find an abandoned furniture item on the side of a country road (they're everywhere) and take a sledgehammer to it. Actually, taking a sledgehammer to anything will help enormously. I used to beat kids up, so I can see where you're coming from. But the sledgehammer thing works. So does a hatchet, but not as well and don't make the same mistake I made (i.e. only smash stuff when there's enough light to see it still, and don't cut the tip off your finger).

It's not failing it's just very hard for a number of reasons. It's easier said than done because it is extremely painful and the mind naturally kicks in and says to stop or do it half-assed. Then you need to look at the people that have jumped off bridges or ferries in NY and have survived. Very few actually die.

someth. funny happened to me lol

agree.

once I tried to kill myself at 17 by poping pills...consiquences weren't deadly but a nightmare...anyway...

but later I went swiming far from all the people I hate guards..hard headed ... and started drowning in the ocean and was actually fighting for my life I think its a natural instinct for all the living creatures..I was shocked when I got out..I like crawled out on the send..it was funny

it was like an eye opener, after that I realized that I didnt really want to die..I just wanted to escape the life that sucked

so I guess we all want to escape by seeing suiced as the only way.

I have to agree.It's not as easy as you think it is.I've read of people jumping off bridges only to survive being paralized from the jump and their life being much worse because of it.Or people taking pills,not enough to kill them but enough to mess them up (brains and or organs) for the rest of their lives.A guy tried to hang himself only to end up with brain damage because he went without air too long,but not long enough to kill him.Most people do not succeed when they attempt it.