Hi everyone,
I'm 26 years old and I have felt lonely my whole life. I'm the youngest of four children. My three older siblings were a lot older than me. I grew up alone at home quite a bit. Most of the relatives on my mother's side were much older than her and most of my first cousins were 12 or more years older than me. I was very lonely a for events involving my mother's side of the family. I did befriend some of the children of my cousins who were around my age or a few years older than me. But it was always awkward because their parents' first cousin.
Most of my dad's side of the family was always cold and hateful to me. One of my father's sister never married and she favored most of my cousins except me. She always took several of them to movies and other places.
Growing up I only had five close friends that I meet at school. I feel that I'm ugly and awkward. I'm only 4"9 and feel out of place with a lot of people because of my height.
After high school,I found it hard to make friends in college. Right now I'm very lonely. I work as a technical writer and I work mostly alone or from home. My position doesn't require me to be around the people who work for the same company as me.
In the past 2 years, I feel extremely lonely. I find it hard to connect with the friends that I have because they are married and have children. I feel weird being around them and their families.
Lately, I have been getting depressed more and more. Recently a cousin of mine came into my city for a big event and she invited many relatives to go to concert and festival and she didn't invite me. I was really upset and I spent days crying about it.
I have thought about going to a therapist but part of the reason I don't go is because therapists probably have been lonely like me.
My loneliness is very hard for me. I try to make friends but I can't click with people and I'm always worried about saying or doing something wrong. I'm always getting left out by relatives and I'm starting really hate them because of it.
Anyway that is what is going on with me.
I'm 26 years old and I have felt lonely my whole life. I'm the youngest of four children. My three older siblings were a lot older than me. I grew up alone at home quite a bit. Most of the relatives on my mother's side were much older than her and most of my first cousins were 12 or more years older than me. I was very lonely a for events involving my mother's side of the family. I did befriend some of the children of my cousins who were around my age or a few years older than me. But it was always awkward because their parents' first cousin.
Most of my dad's side of the family was always cold and hateful to me. One of my father's sister never married and she favored most of my cousins except me. She always took several of them to movies and other places.
Growing up I only had five close friends that I meet at school. I feel that I'm ugly and awkward. I'm only 4"9 and feel out of place with a lot of people because of my height.
After high school,I found it hard to make friends in college. Right now I'm very lonely. I work as a technical writer and I work mostly alone or from home. My position doesn't require me to be around the people who work for the same company as me.
In the past 2 years, I feel extremely lonely. I find it hard to connect with the friends that I have because they are married and have children. I feel weird being around them and their families.
Lately, I have been getting depressed more and more. Recently a cousin of mine came into my city for a big event and she invited many relatives to go to concert and festival and she didn't invite me. I was really upset and I spent days crying about it.
I have thought about going to a therapist but part of the reason I don't go is because therapists probably have been lonely like me.
My loneliness is very hard for me. I try to make friends but I can't click with people and I'm always worried about saying or doing something wrong. I'm always getting left out by relatives and I'm starting really hate them because of it.
Anyway that is what is going on with me.
