Hi there, I'm new here and don't know if this is a real problem, but please let me let it out of my head and heart.
After graduated, I continued studying while my former classmates went to work. We slowly became strangers for traveling on different roads. First, it was not a problem. I was obsessed with a movie, and found an international forum about it. I came there, talk about my beloved character, writing, drawing...I was living with a great passion.
But then time passed and passion faded away. I realized there was something wrong with my life (not only about the obsession), also the studying didn't go well (again, not because the obsession). I got stressed.
During that time,my family was there but I still felt alone, basically we don't have understanding.
When I was having fun at the forum, I made some friends. One of them was there, listened to all my troubles. Though her listening and sharing didn't help much, somehow I went through that hard time and stood up.
I found a job, met some new people and things was going up. And then I figured out that I was being used since the salary is low and the job wasn't like it should be. I quited and found another one. This job is better, or at least I like it.
I have to stick with the computer whole day, but if I feel tired, I can surf the internet, watch movie, chat...as long as I finish the work in time, it's fine.
And then troubles come again.
The colleagues are friendly, but are not real friends. Maybe because I'm a new commer; however, as I see, they treat each other the same way not only me.
I have computer and internet all day, and when I go home, still me and the computer ( or TV, which I think is the same). I have friends now, but we're not that close to hang out everyday, or to call and talk about useless thing.
During working hours, sometimes I'd like to chat with someone for a few minutes. Not about something important, maybe just about a news on TV or a cute shirt I saw in the shop this morning. And I can't find anyone. Think again, I don't have many friends in my chatting friend list, first because I don't like to add people whom I don't know or don't share interested. And second, if there's a person I only meet on internet, after a while when we don't have anything to chat about, I'll remove him. I believe it's good that way, why should I have hundreds names in my list but none of them that I know?
Yet, now I need someone to chat and there's nearly no one. I have my classmates in here, some younger friends who are still studying so they don't have time online. And some from other countries with different timezone.
I don't know if this is a problem or all the feelings before are coming back: fear, loneliness...I just know it's an uncomfortable feeling that I want it to disapppear. I tried some chatting forum but it didn't work. I got tired answering "where're you from" "what do you do"...
I'm thinking of apply for some active class after work, like dancing or so. But I need money which I don't have right now so I'll have to wait for a couple months. But right now I don't know what to do with the feeling in need of someone acompany me online...
After graduated, I continued studying while my former classmates went to work. We slowly became strangers for traveling on different roads. First, it was not a problem. I was obsessed with a movie, and found an international forum about it. I came there, talk about my beloved character, writing, drawing...I was living with a great passion.
But then time passed and passion faded away. I realized there was something wrong with my life (not only about the obsession), also the studying didn't go well (again, not because the obsession). I got stressed.
During that time,my family was there but I still felt alone, basically we don't have understanding.
When I was having fun at the forum, I made some friends. One of them was there, listened to all my troubles. Though her listening and sharing didn't help much, somehow I went through that hard time and stood up.
I found a job, met some new people and things was going up. And then I figured out that I was being used since the salary is low and the job wasn't like it should be. I quited and found another one. This job is better, or at least I like it.
I have to stick with the computer whole day, but if I feel tired, I can surf the internet, watch movie, chat...as long as I finish the work in time, it's fine.
And then troubles come again.
The colleagues are friendly, but are not real friends. Maybe because I'm a new commer; however, as I see, they treat each other the same way not only me.
I have computer and internet all day, and when I go home, still me and the computer ( or TV, which I think is the same). I have friends now, but we're not that close to hang out everyday, or to call and talk about useless thing.
During working hours, sometimes I'd like to chat with someone for a few minutes. Not about something important, maybe just about a news on TV or a cute shirt I saw in the shop this morning. And I can't find anyone. Think again, I don't have many friends in my chatting friend list, first because I don't like to add people whom I don't know or don't share interested. And second, if there's a person I only meet on internet, after a while when we don't have anything to chat about, I'll remove him. I believe it's good that way, why should I have hundreds names in my list but none of them that I know?
Yet, now I need someone to chat and there's nearly no one. I have my classmates in here, some younger friends who are still studying so they don't have time online. And some from other countries with different timezone.
I don't know if this is a problem or all the feelings before are coming back: fear, loneliness...I just know it's an uncomfortable feeling that I want it to disapppear. I tried some chatting forum but it didn't work. I got tired answering "where're you from" "what do you do"...
I'm thinking of apply for some active class after work, like dancing or so. But I need money which I don't have right now so I'll have to wait for a couple months. But right now I don't know what to do with the feeling in need of someone acompany me online...