Hello there...
I wanted to make this topic to maybe get a few advices on a certain problem I have. I did not plan anything out so I will try to write it down as it comes up in my mind and make a logical sentence out of it.
Well where do I start... I have a special problem where I find it surprisingly difficult to trust peoples intentions and believe what they say.
It makes me afraid of actually being to clingy or annoying and I keep asking people if I bother them
(Especially because when there is a person I can genuinely enjoy being with I tend to try to spend as much time with that person as possible.)
Yet when they tell me over and over again that they don't I still have a weird feeling in my stomach afterwards.
For example when someone tells me in an instant message that she has to go to an appointment I am being suspicious and just can't shake that attitude off.
I think it might be caused because once when I was still in school I overheard people who claimed to be my friends talking bad about me behind my back...
I felt like an idiot during that time but I figured it was better than being alone. The biggest problem is that I even think strangers would be laughing about me
when I drive the bus for example. I have to keep telling myself that it is just my imagination. I feel like I am getting crazy and I dont know what I could do.
I hope this at least makes a little sense and I appreciate all comments and advices
I wanted to make this topic to maybe get a few advices on a certain problem I have. I did not plan anything out so I will try to write it down as it comes up in my mind and make a logical sentence out of it.
Well where do I start... I have a special problem where I find it surprisingly difficult to trust peoples intentions and believe what they say.
It makes me afraid of actually being to clingy or annoying and I keep asking people if I bother them
(Especially because when there is a person I can genuinely enjoy being with I tend to try to spend as much time with that person as possible.)
Yet when they tell me over and over again that they don't I still have a weird feeling in my stomach afterwards.
For example when someone tells me in an instant message that she has to go to an appointment I am being suspicious and just can't shake that attitude off.
I think it might be caused because once when I was still in school I overheard people who claimed to be my friends talking bad about me behind my back...
I felt like an idiot during that time but I figured it was better than being alone. The biggest problem is that I even think strangers would be laughing about me
when I drive the bus for example. I have to keep telling myself that it is just my imagination. I feel like I am getting crazy and I dont know what I could do.
I hope this at least makes a little sense and I appreciate all comments and advices