Triple Bogey-generally I don't mention my loneliness to others as it is too personal and too painful and because of the fear that they will downplay it. Also, I don't want people to know how empty my life really is, as they might see me as 'different' because of it. I belong to a reading group and last week there was a problem there when the subject of marriage/relationships came up, which I wrote about in another thread. Anyway, there are a couple of women in the group who were really sympathetic a couple of months ago when they overheard me saying to a friend that I had been on my own over Christmas, saying that they would 'look after me' next Christmas. I really felt reached out to by them. This led to my opening up to them about how my life really is-no family at all and terribly lonely-as I felt I had grounds to trust them to react sensitively. Instead they reacted with derision and a complete lack of empathy. Both have big families they are close to and don't see why I am so lonely. I do wish so much that I hadn't trusted them at all. The social mask I generally wear may hide who I really am and how I really feel inside, but it also protects me from insensitive people, and I wish I hadn't dropped it. Like Jayme, I felt completley rejected by a group of people, as if they despised me for being human.
Blackdot-I am sorry that you, too, have found that church is a lonely place. Your parents have each other, so church is a completely different experience for them than for you. In a way, telling a lonely person to join a church has become a bit of a cliche,which people say when they can't think of anything else to suggest. They have this vague image of a church being a warm and comforting place where we would get the acceptance we need, but as we and others have found, this is not always the case.
Ardour-Yes, many people do assume that the lonely are homebodies. I remember talking to a social worker when I left hospital 16 months ago and telling her that I was deeply lonely. She told me I would have to start going out, and when I told her that I already belonged to various groups and went out several times a week to them, it took the wind out of her sails.
People who see loneliness as something minor haven't experienced it for year after year after year, the way it takes away your self worth, your sense of belonging, your peace of mind, to replace them with feelings of worthlessness, of having noone to turn to, of being afraid all the time incase something else really bad happens and there is noone to support you through it.
Grackle-I am really sorry that people have downplayed your loneliness as well. I agree with you that it is cruel to downplay another person's pain. Saying to you that they wish they could have a couple of hours alone completely disregards how you are feeling at being alone 24 hours a day.
Nightwing-yes, people do confuse loneliness and being needy. I think I do as well. I know that my loneliness does make me feel needy, but then as loneliness is usually a sign that our need for connection is not being met, I guess that they are closely related.