VentVentVent
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First of all Hi to everyone... I'm new here and couldn't wait to get this all out I hope I don't ramble too much
So there's this guy who I've been chatting with for a few months now. Well it started off in a group chat setup and eventually we started chatting privately. I'd been on that particular chat group for about 2 years or so but hadn't met him before and we really kinda clicked once we got messaging. Anyway... over the last 2-3 months, I've been talking almost exclusively to him. Our chats are not romantic in nature at all (which is fine) but we do spend a lot of time together and have lots in common, including family situations etc so he's easy to relate to.
We live on different continents and so there's a big time difference (+6 hours). There was a time when we 1st started chatting that we would chat pretty much throughout the day as he was between jobs (he works on a contractual basis) but when he does have work we chat whenever we get the opportunity.
Over the past 3 weeks, he hasn't been working so naturally, i expect to see more of him. But for some reason, since of late, he only comes online when he knows I won't be there. I usually login on my office pc when I get to work (around 8 am) and then maybe when i get home (around 5pm) but he either messages me right before I leave work or just before I reach work so by the time I see his message, he's gone. When he does login when I'm around he is doing something else like watching a movie or something. This may be my problem but I don't like talking to people when they are preoccupied because when I'm talking to someone, my attention is on them and I have made that clear to him.
Anyway... at this point I think I'm so desperate for some human contact that I sit here at my PC waiting for him. Sometimes I make up my find thinking "No I'm not going online tonight, let him come by and wait for me for once" But I always just end up logging in and when we start talking my doubts disappear. And then I'm back again to square one the next day, waiting on him, waiting for him to say something.
I'm just so sick of being this desperate,clingy girl. Before I met him I was fine... I mean I didn't have any super close relationships but that also meant that I had fewer expectations and my time was my own, you know. It just really sucks that I've reached a point where I'd give up things like going out etc if it meant that we could talk. Anyway... I feel like such a loser And I don't want to feel that way but I don't want to let him go either because apart from the chat room, i have no other way to contact him so if I stop talking to him on chat and he leaves and I change my mind, I will never be able to find him. I also know if that happens, he won't look for me even though he has enough info to find me easily.
I'm being stupid aren't I? I should just chuck it up and leave
So there's this guy who I've been chatting with for a few months now. Well it started off in a group chat setup and eventually we started chatting privately. I'd been on that particular chat group for about 2 years or so but hadn't met him before and we really kinda clicked once we got messaging. Anyway... over the last 2-3 months, I've been talking almost exclusively to him. Our chats are not romantic in nature at all (which is fine) but we do spend a lot of time together and have lots in common, including family situations etc so he's easy to relate to.
We live on different continents and so there's a big time difference (+6 hours). There was a time when we 1st started chatting that we would chat pretty much throughout the day as he was between jobs (he works on a contractual basis) but when he does have work we chat whenever we get the opportunity.
Over the past 3 weeks, he hasn't been working so naturally, i expect to see more of him. But for some reason, since of late, he only comes online when he knows I won't be there. I usually login on my office pc when I get to work (around 8 am) and then maybe when i get home (around 5pm) but he either messages me right before I leave work or just before I reach work so by the time I see his message, he's gone. When he does login when I'm around he is doing something else like watching a movie or something. This may be my problem but I don't like talking to people when they are preoccupied because when I'm talking to someone, my attention is on them and I have made that clear to him.
Anyway... at this point I think I'm so desperate for some human contact that I sit here at my PC waiting for him. Sometimes I make up my find thinking "No I'm not going online tonight, let him come by and wait for me for once" But I always just end up logging in and when we start talking my doubts disappear. And then I'm back again to square one the next day, waiting on him, waiting for him to say something.
I'm just so sick of being this desperate,clingy girl. Before I met him I was fine... I mean I didn't have any super close relationships but that also meant that I had fewer expectations and my time was my own, you know. It just really sucks that I've reached a point where I'd give up things like going out etc if it meant that we could talk. Anyway... I feel like such a loser And I don't want to feel that way but I don't want to let him go either because apart from the chat room, i have no other way to contact him so if I stop talking to him on chat and he leaves and I change my mind, I will never be able to find him. I also know if that happens, he won't look for me even though he has enough info to find me easily.
I'm being stupid aren't I? I should just chuck it up and leave