Relating to people your own age

[Bluey]

Lonesome Crow Wrote:

Bluey Wrote:

jasmin Wrote:

Bluey Wrote:And why dose the world look at British men as gay? Weird. But it make me laugh cos in another place I have said am not gay, am just British lol

It's cos they are well spoken and well mannered.

I don't know about being well maned *picks my nose* lol

jasmin Wrote:You aren't wasting your life! Think of all the people you help here.

That is something I wonder about. How much of a difference can you really make to someones life over the net? I mean being really honest and with out all the politeness crap how much can you really do to help someone over the net at maybe the other side of the world?

I hope I have helped at lest one person in my time here. All though I got here to help myself like every one here. But I have tried in the past to help others as well the best I can and of course only with the time I have.

As long as you see me posting.
As long as I make those phone calls.
I'm still alive and breathing.

Whatever the fucken crazy shit i write sometimes.
Whatever the hell it is I'm going through
Whatever the fuck it is I can't resolve.

There's still hope in me.
No...no one can fix me or live my life for me.

Kind of hard to explain...but here gose.
Many many years ago i had a 9mm to my fucken head
A little speck of hope. As tiny as the ray of light was
I hope i see my duaghter again someday.

I try to committ sueicide a couple of years before that.
I didn't tell anyone. I didn't talk to anyone. I just did it.

Pills and whiskey taste like crap when they pump it out of you.
A god damn plastic tube sholved into my fucken nose and down
my throat felt totally..fucken wierd. Then the mother fuckers had
the nerve to force feed me fucken clay before strapping me in
for the fucken night. Fucken dickheads.

No one wants to hear about my problems or my fucken lame ass suiecide attempts.
Poeple could careless oneway or the other. It's mostly sick crazy dramma crap.
I kept that to myself for years and years. The fucken guilt and shame of it all.
The fucken shrink listen to my ass as if he's going to past out, wanna hang himself or fall alseep.
We were talking the fucken weather...then straight up question if i was still getting my fucken pills.

One question. Would you had gone frow with it if it wasn't for that ray of hope, your duaghter?

[Bluey]

Mm, I take it by your none response that you would had done then.

Ok here's the thing. I don't have any kids and I doubt I ever well. Is/would be a very good reason to live.
Having a lover in my life would be another good reason to live. I also doubt very much that, that well ever happend has well.

You Lonesome Crow have been fro a lot of shit in your life that to me is obvious. Its gave you a weaked personality through.
Am glad not just for you but for your little girl that you lived frow that. Hospitals are not very good at understanding the mental stuff that's in our head. If they where I am sure there would be less to fix in the physical way. I can imagine that you was not made to feel very good why that was going on. Is one reason that if I was to do it I would wont to make sure it was done the first time. ppl I don't think are very understanding. You could have a leg hanging off and everyone would feel sorry for you. You could be feeling the same amount of pain in your head fro depprason burt on by what ever and very few ppl would understand. This to me just makes things weirs and is one reason Ive not been and asked for help anywhere IRL.

But anyway am working fro this shit again now. One moor time. Its always one moor time. But that's how you keep going. End of the day we all have different shit to deal with. You have had very different battles to me. But shit is shit you know in what ever farm it comes in.

[trinitygirl]

I can't really relate to people that are mage and I'm a teenager. Usually I end up associating with older people, usually people in their 20s for some reason..maybe I feel more comfortable talking to them as I'm sure some may have more substantial things to say than a good numberof teenagers.. and I can't help but think that a lot of the teenagers that I know don't seem to be interested in anything more than the latest trends in everything.

[dreamer8]

I've never really related to people my age...ever.
I've been more mature since as far back as I can remember.
It sucks,but I'd rather be grounded and myself than fake being someone else.

[Perfectly_Screwed]

I'm with you on this one, most people my age are just as you put it for your peers are VERY materialistic, and just care for things that I don't really give a shit about. I'm either getting along with someone a lot more older than me or a lot more younger than me, but never really any one my age. Sometimes, I think God gave me the wrong birth-date.

[Lonesome Crow]

(03-06-2009 06:27 AM)Bluey Wrote:  One question. Would you had gone frow with it if it wasn't for that ray of hope, your duaghter?

Yes...
I came back from the dead ( i'm a vampire )
I tried to commit suicide before that. i actaully went through with it.
I crossed that threashold. Wtf...I survived my own suicide.