http://www.alonelylife.com/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 13:18:02 -0400 MyBB http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3305 Sat, 05 Jul 2008 08:34:41 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3305
So if you have not got anyone to go with then you get to see it here and for free.

http://www.watch-movies.net/

Am watching Kung Fu Panda as I write you this.

What you watching?

Oh and am not sure if this sight is strictly legal so moms the word :cool: But this panda can really move lol]]>
So if you have not got anyone to go with then you get to see it here and for free.

http://www.watch-movies.net/

Am watching Kung Fu Panda as I write you this.

What you watching?

Oh and am not sure if this sight is strictly legal so moms the word :cool: But this panda can really move lol]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3303 Sat, 05 Jul 2008 03:29:25 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3303
I have been seeing a counsellor for a while now and things have started to make a lot more sense than before I did...I openly talk and think about things within my hour long session and it has been so good to talk. I have surprised myself at what I have said...but this week things have taken a turn for the worse...

My counselling session has focussed on my problems with being rejected...and the more I consider things the more I realise that I cannot take any more rejection...the total feeling of abject failure is one that I just cannot take any more.

My parents invited themselves over this week to come and see me and we were supposed to be going out for something to eat...they haven't been to see me for about 3 years...it is a half hour drive...I asked them to come and let my cat out once when I was away...but they were too busy. I phoned them the day before they were due to come over and turned them down...my reason...because I realised that both my brothers were away with their families in Glastonbury and that the reason they were coming over is because my brothers weren't about.

I was supposed to go and see my girlfriend last night. She has recently been away to help her sort through problems she has had and get them out of her system by writing them down...I have read them and they are truly awful...the things she has had to go through...it makes my life seem easy in comparison. We didn't meet up. She was too tired from work over the week (she has done 70 hours) and wanted to go home and go to sleep...I have seen her for one hour in the past 11 days...and god knows I miss her...and I just want to be held tight and told that everything will be ok.

My one true rock is work...and these last few weeks have got worse and worse...I wrote a letter of resignation last night...there were four things that happened yesterday that told me to give it all up...even my work is starting to reject me.

My worry is that I am starting to feel anger and resentment towards all the things around me...and I know why...it is because I am constantly feeling rejected...and everyone makes me feel rejected.

For the first time last night in my entire life I actually wondered why I am here any more...the first time in my life I am actually thinking that I really don't want to be here any more...and yes for the first time in my life I actually thought about slipping off my seat belt and strategically placing my car into a tree...but I fear that even death might reject me.

I am truly sorry to all the people I have ever upset or hurt in my life. I never did anything intentionally to hurt you and you know I never would.

I am so sorry.]]>
I have been seeing a counsellor for a while now and things have started to make a lot more sense than before I did...I openly talk and think about things within my hour long session and it has been so good to talk. I have surprised myself at what I have said...but this week things have taken a turn for the worse...

My counselling session has focussed on my problems with being rejected...and the more I consider things the more I realise that I cannot take any more rejection...the total feeling of abject failure is one that I just cannot take any more.

My parents invited themselves over this week to come and see me and we were supposed to be going out for something to eat...they haven't been to see me for about 3 years...it is a half hour drive...I asked them to come and let my cat out once when I was away...but they were too busy. I phoned them the day before they were due to come over and turned them down...my reason...because I realised that both my brothers were away with their families in Glastonbury and that the reason they were coming over is because my brothers weren't about.

I was supposed to go and see my girlfriend last night. She has recently been away to help her sort through problems she has had and get them out of her system by writing them down...I have read them and they are truly awful...the things she has had to go through...it makes my life seem easy in comparison. We didn't meet up. She was too tired from work over the week (she has done 70 hours) and wanted to go home and go to sleep...I have seen her for one hour in the past 11 days...and god knows I miss her...and I just want to be held tight and told that everything will be ok.

My one true rock is work...and these last few weeks have got worse and worse...I wrote a letter of resignation last night...there were four things that happened yesterday that told me to give it all up...even my work is starting to reject me.

My worry is that I am starting to feel anger and resentment towards all the things around me...and I know why...it is because I am constantly feeling rejected...and everyone makes me feel rejected.

For the first time last night in my entire life I actually wondered why I am here any more...the first time in my life I am actually thinking that I really don't want to be here any more...and yes for the first time in my life I actually thought about slipping off my seat belt and strategically placing my car into a tree...but I fear that even death might reject me.

I am truly sorry to all the people I have ever upset or hurt in my life. I never did anything intentionally to hurt you and you know I never would.

I am so sorry.]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3302 Fri, 04 Jul 2008 20:27:50 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3302
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/wales/7489457.stm

Only something so ridiculous as this could happen where i live. I've been laughing about it all day. With all the ufo reports in the uk at the moment, i bet the police were really worried when they had the call.]]>
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/wales/7489457.stm

Only something so ridiculous as this could happen where i live. I've been laughing about it all day. With all the ufo reports in the uk at the moment, i bet the police were really worried when they had the call.]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3301 Fri, 04 Jul 2008 19:50:52 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3301 Um, I'm a very shy boy and I don't get along with people very well but I am pretty cheerful on the internet. ^_^

I decided to join the Lonely Life because I've just lost a lot of friends recently and I've been very lonely since then. I hope I can meet new friends in here and I'll do my best to help others and improve my own social skills while I'm at it.

Oh and my favourite colour is blueee! Teehee ~
Nice to meet you !]]> Um, I'm a very shy boy and I don't get along with people very well but I am pretty cheerful on the internet. ^_^

I decided to join the Lonely Life because I've just lost a lot of friends recently and I've been very lonely since then. I hope I can meet new friends in here and I'll do my best to help others and improve my own social skills while I'm at it.

Oh and my favourite colour is blueee! Teehee ~
Nice to meet you !]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3300 Fri, 04 Jul 2008 13:23:51 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3300 Some people have seen them, and some people have not.

I will not post them all here, but I will post some.
Your thoughts and comments would be appreciated.


Forgotten Warrior
Created: August 31, 2006



knight
Created: August 31, 2006



* Mind's Eye
Created: September 2, 2007



* Lollipops
Created: October 1, 2006




* Colors....
Created: May 11, 2008





* Click image for full view]]> Some people have seen them, and some people have not.

I will not post them all here, but I will post some.
Your thoughts and comments would be appreciated.


Forgotten Warrior
Created: August 31, 2006



knight
Created: August 31, 2006



* Mind's Eye
Created: September 2, 2007



* Lollipops
Created: October 1, 2006




* Colors....
Created: May 11, 2008





* Click image for full view]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3299 Fri, 04 Jul 2008 09:38:55 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3299
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=5...p?ref=home

hope the link works, if not tell me.]]>
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=5...p?ref=home

hope the link works, if not tell me.]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3298 Fri, 04 Jul 2008 08:27:29 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3298 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3297 Thu, 03 Jul 2008 23:53:38 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3297 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3296 Thu, 03 Jul 2008 22:32:26 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3296
Dr. Horrible!

I feel the urge to spread this to as many people as I can... It looks awesome.]]>
Dr. Horrible!

I feel the urge to spread this to as many people as I can... It looks awesome.]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3295 Thu, 03 Jul 2008 10:47:55 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3295
Loneliness may be the common denominator that draws us all together. It is a pain we all share, and are familiar with. If there ever is any comfort that anyone of you good people need, please feel free to seek it out. Anything I can do to cheer anyone up would truly be my pleasure.]]>
Loneliness may be the common denominator that draws us all together. It is a pain we all share, and are familiar with. If there ever is any comfort that anyone of you good people need, please feel free to seek it out. Anything I can do to cheer anyone up would truly be my pleasure.]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3294 Wed, 02 Jul 2008 19:19:33 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3294
I remember a forum member talking about Murakami. I've read Wind-Up Bird Chronicle and Wild Cheep Chase. Both are really good. I also dig Ryu Murakami (no relation). I have In the Miso Soup in my backlog and I am a huge fan of Coin Locker Babies.

Anyways, I'm currently reading Brothers Karamazov by Dostoevsky. Its a mission to complete but its a very good book. A true epic tale. Definitely planning on making some room to read it again in the future.]]>
I remember a forum member talking about Murakami. I've read Wind-Up Bird Chronicle and Wild Cheep Chase. Both are really good. I also dig Ryu Murakami (no relation). I have In the Miso Soup in my backlog and I am a huge fan of Coin Locker Babies.

Anyways, I'm currently reading Brothers Karamazov by Dostoevsky. Its a mission to complete but its a very good book. A true epic tale. Definitely planning on making some room to read it again in the future.]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3293 Wed, 02 Jul 2008 18:35:40 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3293 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3290 Wed, 02 Jul 2008 08:59:38 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3290
I call him... Naked man in forest! with feathers :D



He's sketchy 'cause i rushed him :p]]>
I call him... Naked man in forest! with feathers :D



He's sketchy 'cause i rushed him :p]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3289 Tue, 01 Jul 2008 21:33:27 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3289 how are you supposed to react when approached by a stranger?
can it go smoothly? is it ever enjoyable?

I'm pretty sure something's wrong with me. I'm not even very shy and I'm a normal amount of quiet in social situations, but something about getting hit on by a random stranger practically triggers a physical allergic reaction. The same thing always always happens and it's always so unpleasant.

I'm pretty sure you're not supposed to completely freeze up, turn purple, feel your heart in your throat, glue your eyes to the floor and feel an overwhelming sense of dread when a guy tries to talk to you. What is this?! Extreme social anxiety but only in ONE situation?

I'm not talking about getting hit on in clubs or bars or other places where it's pretty much fair game. I mean everyday places where you feel like being anonymous, like while looking at dresses at the vintage shops. A guy walked up to me and gave me a post it with his name and phone number on it, said he was a comedian opening at a sold out show in LA, and said he'd like to see me there and would put my name on a list. Woah..that was really weird. That kind of thing's never happened to me before and I was 10% flattered, but mostly wanting him to stop talking to me and leave :(

please tell me I'm not the only one?]]> how are you supposed to react when approached by a stranger?
can it go smoothly? is it ever enjoyable?

I'm pretty sure something's wrong with me. I'm not even very shy and I'm a normal amount of quiet in social situations, but something about getting hit on by a random stranger practically triggers a physical allergic reaction. The same thing always always happens and it's always so unpleasant.

I'm pretty sure you're not supposed to completely freeze up, turn purple, feel your heart in your throat, glue your eyes to the floor and feel an overwhelming sense of dread when a guy tries to talk to you. What is this?! Extreme social anxiety but only in ONE situation?

I'm not talking about getting hit on in clubs or bars or other places where it's pretty much fair game. I mean everyday places where you feel like being anonymous, like while looking at dresses at the vintage shops. A guy walked up to me and gave me a post it with his name and phone number on it, said he was a comedian opening at a sold out show in LA, and said he'd like to see me there and would put my name on a list. Woah..that was really weird. That kind of thing's never happened to me before and I was 10% flattered, but mostly wanting him to stop talking to me and leave :(

please tell me I'm not the only one?]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3288 Tue, 01 Jul 2008 21:20:46 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3288
If you find them on youtube, post them here :D!

One of mine is:
kings of convenience-I'd rather dance with you
HERE

There's something hypnotic about Erlend's dancing haha. :D]]>
If you find them on youtube, post them here :D!

One of mine is:
kings of convenience-I'd rather dance with you
HERE

There's something hypnotic about Erlend's dancing haha. :D]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3287 Tue, 01 Jul 2008 15:58:55 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3287 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3286 Tue, 01 Jul 2008 13:26:44 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3286
Seriously, WHY would anyone be afraid of the inanimate? Seems to me that of all the people on the planet, the LIVING are the ones you should fear the most. NOT ONCE has a dead person stolen my car, taken my wallet or threatened any of my friends or family. I've never been cut off in traffic by a dead person and dead people have never tried to sell me something over the phone.

As far I'm concerned, dead people are pretty cool. Someday I'd like to find a house next to a cemetery...what perfect, well behaved neighbors I'd have.

So to all the dead people reading this...I salute you!]]>
Seriously, WHY would anyone be afraid of the inanimate? Seems to me that of all the people on the planet, the LIVING are the ones you should fear the most. NOT ONCE has a dead person stolen my car, taken my wallet or threatened any of my friends or family. I've never been cut off in traffic by a dead person and dead people have never tried to sell me something over the phone.

As far I'm concerned, dead people are pretty cool. Someday I'd like to find a house next to a cemetery...what perfect, well behaved neighbors I'd have.

So to all the dead people reading this...I salute you!]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3285 Tue, 01 Jul 2008 11:01:39 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3285 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3284 Tue, 01 Jul 2008 02:50:45 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3284
IM OFF TO ASIA TO PARTY OFF TO HONG KONG AND MACAU YEAH YEAH!!!!1]]>
IM OFF TO ASIA TO PARTY OFF TO HONG KONG AND MACAU YEAH YEAH!!!!1]]> http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3283 Tue, 01 Jul 2008 00:17:58 -0400 http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=3283
Misery,
Agony
Who whould ever want to live this way?
The pain's
Unbearable
Somebody please take me from this place
Misery,
I'll lose my mind
I love you so,
But you don't stay
It's killing me
Slowly,
And yet I think of you
And I do breathe
Misery,
Agony,
I don't want to love you, but I can't stop
Misery


In the hole

In the hole
Where I sit
Lead that flies
Over my head
Praise the Lord
Cause we may die
Make your last wish
And prepare to fight

In the hole
We're afraid
Of all the noises
And the bombs overhead
We want to run,
But we just hide
We don't want to be the next in line

In the hole
Where I am
Praying someone will make this end

I know Naleena will like this one ;)
It doesn't have a name cuz I just wrote it that was that

I seen an angel, he’s up high
Flying through these dreams
I’ve been through hell now, seen a lot of things
Things’ll make you weep
But somehow, these aint empty dreams
They still make me feel
And when in doubt, I’ll still hold on
To these crazy dreams

They take me away
To a far off place

I’m seeing heaven, what a beautiful place
It’s just like my dreams
But somewhere far, far away from here
That’s where I keep staying

I’ve seen an angel, seen a lot of things
But nothing quite like you
You’re a dream,
But I’ll still hold on
To what I believe

Caged

Anger,
Barely contained again
Someday
It’ll seep out and conquer me
Again,
A feeling that makes me weak

Caged,
It’s the only way
Caged,
With so much to say,
Rage,
Is to feel this hate
Caged,
Is my hopeless fate

Anger,
Like a storm in waiting
I’m screaming
For someone to hear
Fell on,
Deaf ears and blind eyes
But again,
It’ll burst instead.


Prop Me Up

Prop me up,
Hold me high for all to see
Help me out when I’m in need
Don’t let me down

You make my life worth living
You ease the horror in this breathing
Your smile makes me think I’m alright,
But I’m not fine

You put the photos on my wall,
The one I keep inside my head
And now they just won’t fade away
After all this time

So prop me up,
Make me smile when I am bleeding
Don’t go away till I have healed, and
Don’t let me down

The Shadow People

The shadow people,
Shadowed hope
The hooded figures in my home

Why have you come?
Why have you made me come undone?

The shadow people
A ghostly demon in my eyes

Why have you come?
My misery is all your fun

It lives in me
Some things I’m not supposed to see

Standing in the shade
Where everything seems gray
I’m feeling dread
Cuz somehow this ain’t dead just yet

A tragedy,
You made me cry out all these years

A lonely lady
An old and burnt out lady
Your fragile bones
Comfort me through the cold

The shadow people,
Shadowy homes
Our past makes our future undone

Why have you come?
Just tell me why you’ve come…


next one is just a rambling... not really a song just a section of what could've been one but I guess the inspiration didn't last long enough

Now that you’re gone I don’t know what to say
Everyone’s left but the loneliness stays
She’s my partner when you’re gone
And you’ve been gone forever
So many stories I forgot to say
So many dreams I forgot to share
Because I knew deep down in my heart,
You wouldn’t have cared!



I See You Everyday

I see you everywhere,
All the time
When I look in the mirror
I see your face behind mine
It tells me that you’re fine
But I’m not alright
And I don’t want you now,
I know our story’s gone
It was a shame to wait
No one can fight their fate

You left me here alone
I’m still here like a stone
I see you everyday
You never go away

And everyday you seem
More like what you had been
While I’m still in this hole
The memories unfold
A snapshot of your face
Cold as morning rain

As I look in your face
From far away today
It’s not the warmest place
Not like it used to be
As I look in your eyes,
You lost your will to fight
And I will not be friends
But I’ll see you again

And in my head and heart
I’m broken up apart
And in my soul and faith
There’s nothing but the pain

I see you everyday,
I see you everywhere.]]>
Misery,
Agony
Who whould ever want to live this way?
The pain's
Unbearable
Somebody please take me from this place
Misery,
I'll lose my mind
I love you so,
But you don't stay
It's killing me
Slowly,
And yet I think of you
And I do breathe
Misery,
Agony,
I don't want to love you, but I can't stop
Misery


In the hole

In the hole
Where I sit
Lead that flies
Over my head
Praise the Lord
Cause we may die
Make your last wish
And prepare to fight

In the hole
We're afraid
Of all the noises
And the bombs overhead
We want to run,
But we just hide
We don't want to be the next in line

In the hole
Where I am
Praying someone will make this end

I know Naleena will like this one ;)
It doesn't have a name cuz I just wrote it that was that

I seen an angel, he’s up high
Flying through these dreams
I’ve been through hell now, seen a lot of things
Things’ll make you weep
But somehow, these aint empty dreams
They still make me feel
And when in doubt, I’ll still hold on
To these crazy dreams

They take me away
To a far off place

I’m seeing heaven, what a beautiful place
It’s just like my dreams
But somewhere far, far away from here
That’s where I keep staying

I’ve seen an angel, seen a lot of things
But nothing quite like you
You’re a dream,
But I’ll still hold on
To what I believe

Caged

Anger,
Barely contained again
Someday
It’ll seep out and conquer me
Again,
A feeling that makes me weak

Caged,
It’s the only way
Caged,
With so much to say,
Rage,
Is to feel this hate
Caged,
Is my hopeless fate

Anger,
Like a storm in waiting
I’m screaming
For someone to hear
Fell on,
Deaf ears and blind eyes
But again,
It’ll burst instead.


Prop Me Up

Prop me up,
Hold me high for all to see
Help me out when I’m in need
Don’t let me down

You make my life worth living
You ease the horror in this breathing
Your smile makes me think I’m alright,
But I’m not fine

You put the photos on my wall,
The one I keep inside my head
And now they just won’t fade away
After all this time

So prop me up,
Make me smile when I am bleeding
Don’t go away till I have healed, and
Don’t let me down

The Shadow People

The shadow people,
Shadowed hope
The hooded figures in my home

Why have you come?
Why have you made me come undone?

The shadow people
A ghostly demon in my eyes

Why have you come?
My misery is all your fun

It lives in me
Some things I’m not supposed to see

Standing in the shade
Where everything seems gray
I’m feeling dread
Cuz somehow this ain’t dead just yet

A tragedy,
You made me cry out all these years

A lonely lady
An old and burnt out lady
Your fragile bones
Comfort me through the cold

The shadow people,
Shadowy homes
Our past makes our future undone

Why have you come?
Just tell me why you’ve come…


next one is just a rambling... not really a song just a section of what could've been one but I guess the inspiration didn't last long enough

Now that you’re gone I don’t know what to say
Everyone’s left but the loneliness stays
She’s my partner when you’re gone
And you’ve been gone forever
So many stories I forgot to say
So many dreams I forgot to share
Because I knew deep down in my heart,
You wouldn’t have cared!



I See You Everyday

I see you everywhere,
All the time
When I look in the mirror
I see your face behind mine
It tells me that you’re fine
But I’m not alright
And I don’t want you now,
I know our story’s gone
It was a shame to wait
No one can fight their fate

You left me here alone
I’m still here like a stone
I see you everyday
You never go away

And everyday you seem
More like what you had been
While I’m still in this hole
The memories unfold
A snapshot of your face
Cold as morning rain

As I look in your face
From far away today
It’s not the warmest place
Not like it used to be
As I look in your eyes,
You lost your will to fight
And I will not be friends
But I’ll see you again

And in my head and heart
I’m broken up apart
And in my soul and faith
There’s nothing but the pain

I see you everyday,
I see you everywhere.]]>