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Marry, Boff or Kill?

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 17:21:41 -0500

For the ladies:
Jay Leno
Donald Trump
Bill Gates

For the men:
Hillary Clinton
Sarah Palin
Condoleezza Rice

And if you think you could swing either way, feel free to draw from both lists

Pentagram

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 14:35:36 -0500

Okay, so I've been wondering for a while. Whenever a pentagram comes up, people think Satan or devilry or something of the sort, but in actuality, the Pentagram represents the 5 wounds of Christ, it is only when flipped upside down that it is turned into something of devilry. The same is said for the crucifix and other religious icons. So why do people associate all pentagrams with evil?

(I was debating whether or not this is a debate topic or not, so if it is in the wrong place, simply move it)

Letting go.

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 14:01:55 -0500

Our hands grasped tightly
I gazed deeply into your eyes
For a moment I lost myself in them
And the whisps of auburn hair that danced around your face
I pressed my lips to yours,caressed your cheek
And
Let
Go

R.I.P Corey Haim

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 10:41:39 -0500

"According to police, Haim, who had past substance-abuse problems, died at 3:30 a.m. Wednesday of an accidental overdose."

I know that there is a thread that covers deaths already, but I wanted to do one separately. Corey Haim was an 80's icon for those of you too young to remember seeing him in any films. My favorties were Silver Bullet and Lost Boys.
He was only 38.

Happy Birthday Evanescencefan

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 07:52:12 -0500

Happy Birthday Evanescencefan

Happy Birthday daniel.bay

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 07:51:35 -0500

Happy Birthday daniel.bay

Happy Birthday Blue Sky

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 07:50:37 -0500

Happy Birthday Blue Sky

New on the forum

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 05:36:45 -0500

Hello,

My name is B. Well, that's my initial, obviously. I'm a 20 year old college student from the Southern California sunshine state with a bipolar weather disorder. I found this website after I googled "forums for lonely people." I'm not sure what I was really seeking. I guess I can just get really down in the dumps and feel so lonely, and I don't have anywhere to turn, and so I turned to google. Surprisingly, this has lead me to many excellent discoveries of which I have been entertained by for hours. My parents are out-going social butterflies who can walk into a room of people and come out 20 minutes later everyone's best friend. They consider me abnormal. Their position to my social awkwardness is "suck it up."

I'm an English/Screenwriting major, but I'm not sure I'm fully equipped to write screenplays as good screenplays are usually written by people with life experience, of which I have none.

Other interests: TV shows like Dexter, Chuck, and CSI: Crime Scene Investigation. I enjoy reading. I do/don't enjoy being socially awkward. I tell awful knock knock jokes. I own enough music to open a small music store. My favorite genre of film is horror, then thriller, then sci-fi. I used to ride dirt-bikes with my dad. I like to draw, but can't. I like the guitar, but can't play it (yet). I start a lot of things and never finish them. I hate that I'm a "boyfriend-girl" by which I mean I only hang out or am seen with my boyfriend. I did not mean for it to become this way, I did not lose friends to having a boyfriend, I just never made any (not because of-- I just never have made any lasting friendships). I seem to be unable to form connections with anyone. i.e. New Semester starts, I "make friends" with Z and J, who are "homework buddies" however Z and J now also hang out on the weekends. I missed that memo. I never know how to take "meeting someone" to the next level.

I'm not sure what the experience of a forum will provide. I've never used one, I'm not sure what it entirely entails. So, hello all. Sorry for being so long-winded.

so tired...

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 05:18:10 -0500

ok- im so tired that i cant even remember if i already posted this...but i dont think i did.

why do i stay up so late (its 5:15am)? even when im exhausted. i can hardly keep my eyes open yet im still here. so weird. anyone understand this??

but the good news is, i found a website that has tons of immunology, bacteriology, and virology lectures with power points. i know, im a nerd. this is why i can never make friends. who else, but me, actually listens to virology lectures at 2am....nobody.

Hello

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 03:38:27 -0500

Hello everybody,

It's so nice to have found a place to talk to friendly strangers. yes, I feel so lonely. I don't have anyone to talk to right now. I live far away from my country, my friends are gone, and this city in Mass is not friendly at all. After trying everything I have just given up the will to meet new people. The best place to be is my room. I just want to go back home really, I'm so homesick!! and I am from Spain and people is so friendly there I miss it a lot..

Is It Okay??

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 02:18:28 -0500

Is it okay to think about suicide sometimes???
I don't think anything's mentally wrong with me but i catch myself thinking about it a lot lately but i really don't think i would actually go through with it.
I was just wounding if it is normal to think this way and if anyone else thinks about this. If it's not normal is there anyone out there with methods that can help me???

Streeny Poo needs YOU...

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 01:17:09 -0500

...to PM her your e-mail or messenger if I don't have it already, for those of you whom I talk to on here (or even those whom I don't, I suppose >.> )

Very shortly I'll be taking a sort've leave of absence, if you will. I don't know for how long, but at the moment I've got finals looming at me and a million other things to do in RL to keep on top of, so for the time being I need to take myself away from here as right now it proves to be a distraction that tends to suck up a lot of my focus.

So! With that being said, if anyone wishes to keep in contact, feel free to PM me about it. In the meantime, I have an entire paper to write that is due tomorrow and another full, busy day on top of that. ^^;

Loves to all.

Tri-team fail

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 01:04:12 -0500

well, awhile back i posted that i was joining a triathlon team at my school- and i did. but it sucked. the only people that showed up were the four members that have been on the team forever. and oh ya- they're in incredible shape. they left me in the dust. so i was working out by myself. sucked.

so im sitting here wishing i had some good friends to hang out with. i had a good friend about four years ago and i miss her a lot. we used to do a lot together. we complemented each other. im not a person that drinks, goes to clubs, or gossips, but im also not religious. so its hard for me to find people i get a long with. but she was just like me. i really miss hanging out with her.

such a lonely life. i wonder if it'll ever end. ive concluded that there's nothing i can do about it. seems this is just my life for the time being. my brother came to visit and i told him pretty much all i do is go to school and take my dog to the river. he said at least i had that (meaning my dog). i felt bad for him. i guess he's really lonely, too.

Why....

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 22:09:50 -0500

Why.... do i get NONE!!!!!! and how can i get some, cause i'm a lonely person and pathetic

I'm scared to be like this forever...

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 21:55:31 -0500

Are you?

I keep hoping for that light at the end of the tunnel...

Sometimes I wonder...
If loneliness is just fate...
If it can't be helped no matter how much effort you put forth...

It's tiring...

I know, I know...
"Don't give up"
"Keep pushing"
"It'll get better" etc...

But with every passing day, I become more and more tired...
I don't want to be in the same place another 10, 20, 30, 40 years...
I'm scared...
I'm so scared...
That all of this...all of my efforts during my "young life" were for nothing...
I don't want to be struggling 10 years from now...
I don't want to be struggling 20 years from now...

Oh god please...

I constantly hope that things will get better...
And they somewhat have...slightly...
Even so...not enough.

I wish I could see myself 10 years from now...
Maybe another 20 years from now...
To see where I'll be...
I'd much rather go out with a bang, than a long painful struggle.

Setting goals you cannot achieve

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 18:32:28 -0500

Today in School I made a Psychological Personality test (NEO-pi-r). Some of the results where:
- I scored very high in Depression, Fear and Shame
- Very high in Fantasy, idea's and Feelings.
- And also very low on Discipline, Goal setting and Trustworthy.

This made me think.

I felt like sharing, because typing this out will make me understand my problem better in the process.

My problem is feeling depressed (while not actually being depressed) via a big time overall goal I set for myself, which I cannot achieve. But the weird thing is, I dont feel that way. I still tell myself that I can reach this, but the evidence shows otherwise. Yet I cannot accept it (yet).

It all began in the early years of my life (I am now 21). My brother was and still is way smarter then I am, which led him to great succes (like starring in the best watched television programs, or having his life in order, or when he was younger doing a great feat that you can call "amazing" for his age). As a younger brother, I never could achieve the succes he did. He would take the lead in anything and I would just follow. He is the dominant part of my life, and I love him to death, but his succes never gave me a chance to develop certain skills.

As an example, my brother went to America on age 18 for a whole year. That gave me the chance to develop myself more (I was 16 then). For instance, I usually never would say that much when we where eating dinner at the table, but then, with my brother gone, I got the chance and started to develop my social skills, among other things. He couldn't be dominant, because he wasn't there. Which was a great lesson, but I am still catching up.

The reason why I am telling this much about my brother is probably because I was, and still am, trying to model him and his succes. Wanting to prove to my self and my surrounding (parents, family) that I am special too. Whole my life I have set the bar very very high for my self, and everytime I would fail. Still, I keep my optimism and come up with great ideas I want to achieve, but I simply don't have the discipline to reach it. I know I have the capacities for some of my goals, which makes me sad and angry at my self for not doing what I know I can do.

What I need to do is let go. Let go of the image I want to be and start being myself. That is something I have to do, I know deep inside, yet I am sure I will not be myself for many years to come. The fear of letting go of my identity I carefully build up for my self is too painful.

This image I created for myself, of who I want to be, is now at this moment slowly falling apart. The cause of this is School. I am studying to become a Psychologist. I know I have the capacities, yet I fail at tests due to lack of discipline (I dont study enough as I should, even though I find this stuff very interesting) and a poor understanding of language, which makes me mis-interpet certain questions I get asked on a test.

My poor results is breaking my self-image down. And it hurts, because it feels like my whole life is falling apart. Yet, when I keep peering into the future, I see my self as a knowledgeable Psychologist helping all sorts of people with mental illness.

My big question at the moment is, should I keep trying or should I give up.

Pat Morita: Asian American Jesus

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 17:43:46 -0500

I would like to spread the word to all of my Asian American brethren of how Pat Morita lived and died for our sins. Being one man, he suffered at the hands of Jay Leno so that we who followed would be spared the same agonizing fate. He died willingly and with dignity, for he knew that his selfless actions would one day lead to a better life for his children and his children's children. Thank you, Pat Morita. We are forever grateful. Wax on, wax off...

what would be the WORSE way to die?

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 17:10:38 -0500

A) tied up and slowly cut to pieces by a serial killer?

or

B) drugged, sodomized, and cannabalized?

*i think both would be equally horrible* (i just saw this movie "Law Abiding Citizen" which has gruesome imagery, so naturally my mind takes a stream-of-consciousness approach)

have fun with this one, errrr not!

The Choice

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 14:42:19 -0500

The Choice

After careful consideration of the options I have determined that none of them lead to happiness. The acceptance and awareness of this conclusion brings an end to the strife of uncertainty. The power of positive thinking is no more or less helpful now then it ever was and I find it equally impossible to be positive or negative at all times. Thus my efforts do not grant purity of either kind, but the devil is in the details and how they are to be organized in ones life. Perhaps this seemingly dismal external existence is fitting for one who was blessed with such a positive and expansive imagination, the cultivation of which requires the day-dreamer to continually seek refuge within.

This does not imply that all options are equal in value nor Is the criteria for the choice to be based upon that which seemingly offers the greatest benefit. Not even the tangible reliability of an option counts towards the choice in this case, nor does how the choice will affect others. The choice is even beyond the distinctions of logic and emotion as both are equally valued; neither “follow your heart” nor “do what is best” have taken hold here. The choice is as a road that has split to both sides with any number of roads between them, but here the middle road does not exist and all other roads are equally valid.

By now you are no doubt wondering what the basis for the choice could possibly be, but I have found a way to ignore the choice altogether. Each road represents it’s own version of temptation and sacrifice, an idea of which is imprinted on the signpost, but temptation and sacrifice are equally meaningless to the traveler who understands his own path. Therefore the correct road is that which most closely resembles the cozy continuation of the travelers path. Now the traveler need only observe the features of the road.

The road has always been hard, but the traveler has always found peace within it. Joy that cultivates within and illuminates the mysteries with a boundless fathoming of endless worlds. The road has always been walked alone, but that does not mean a companion cannot appear. For when this happens the gloomy forest that is ahead becomes a warm abundant sanctuary of friendly creatures that are shielded from the tiresome sun and provide many resources for the journey ahead. Indeed the worst becomes the best, but this confuses the traveler as it is so very different from the road he has known.

Upon clearing the forest the road divides and the traveler must part ways with his companion. There is no goodbye; only the promise that their paths will cross again. The traveler is left to contemplate the change within him that has allowed him to traverse the dark forest, but night on the open road has somehow become darker then the forest ever was. It is here that he learns the road changes, but remains the same. The travelers path has not changed, but it is now more difficult to traverse, just as it was when he entered the forest. He is left to decide if the companion really helped him along the way or made his entire journey as dark and as difficult as the forest he had hoped to avoid.

The traveler reaches the fork and builds his campfire where the roads divide. There it burns and consumes, just as the strife within his soul takes hold of his heart for he must choose one real path for himself. He examines his surroundings taking every possible measurement, but is left with perfect symmetry; the same perfect symmetry he has always admired, only now it is his curse. Knowing that temptation and sacrifice are equally measured he realizes the most familiar road is actually the most different. The traveler reaches within just as he has always done for this is the merit of his journey on the path. Thus he is content to chase after the one who helped him, for she has become the traveler so he must become the companion. Thus has the choice been made for better and for worse. The roles may change many times, but all is well so long as they are both headed for the same destination.

"remember me?" option...ARG

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 08:43:02 -0500

didn't there used to be a "remember me" option upon signing in?

if so, it isn't there now.

everytime i close my browser and then return here, i have to re-enter my username and password. it's getting quite tedious! LOL