Seriously or Sarcasm?

It is just very sad to know that my dad and mom are so dam clueless about me.

First off I had a conversation with my dad, wait let me change it, I was force to sit down and listen to what he think is best for me to listen crap.

Now he ask me did I feel like killing myself because I can't smile, umm...dad if you haven't notice, I'm pretty much always thinking about killing myself all my life starting with the first day I ever step foot in kindergarten.

Now my dad is praising my look and telling me that I have low self esteem (duh!) and I have a tall nose, and I'm tall and all that baloney. First of all, I'm only 5'8, so I am short, so stop calling me tall. He ask if I like the picture of me when I was small, how handsome I was and all that. NO, I was never good looking or average looking and most of my picture is hidden in my closet. Don't you just hate it when your parents lie to you especially when it about your look? Hell I don't even like looking at myself, and so it a done deal, so stop bringing that up.

So now my dad was talking about how I have low self-esteem and girls can see right through it (yup another duh!) He was like Chris, you'll never have any friend if your not a nice person. OK this crap me up in my mind. He like go out there and make some friend, right on boss! What you think I been doing all these years, ya jackass? I am a nice person, and because of my social anxiety last year I left most of my female friends hanging, so you don't know the whole story so stop preaching me.

Really why does my parents keep thinking I have the prefect life and I have more advantage than disadvantage? If I was a happy person, I would have never even knew these site would exist. If I was good looking or normal looking, I wouldn't have been call "ugly" and "weird looking" and all those BS that occur throughout my life, and I wouldn't get beat up only because I look differently from everyone else. Now let look at my advantage: Im short, I'm Asian, I can't smile, I been harass and make fun off, name calling, racist name calling, beat up, subject of many rumor, excluded from groups, lonely, unwanted even by my fellow Asian, girls are not attracted to me, ugly, and the list go on and on. Boy how can parents be so ignorant?