im tired of 9-5 working everyday.

In this city ,i have nothing except those stupid work.
i just feel sad. u know ,all those people r working hard, living happily, they r so lifeful,they can fill their lives,they make everything meaningful.

perfect crowd except me.im the only one who is stopped.

all people r moving on , try to make a career, they r even running. but i m just stopped.u know ,its a logjam.i stayed in the dark. im left.what a wonderful world. its just note mine.
i still encourage myself with those small pretty hopes. i told myself dont give up. but, friends, i feel i cant be strong any more. i m so lonely ,upset now. i want to love someone, i need a hug, i want love.

they always told me, shino, u deserve a good man, a cool life.thats bullshit!look at me, what do i have?nothing!

ok, calm down, thats the only thing i can say to myself now. continue to telling myself, tomorrow is another day.dreams will come true.

im a fool.

I know that a reply on an Internet forum is small comfort, shinojuly, but I would just like to say that this world IS as much yours as it is everybody else's. I think you are doing the right thing by keeping up your hopes. It's the best thing that we (you/I/anybody) can do.

Yes, they will.

I must respectfully disagree.