I think I'll second that.

love makes me lose my head, destroys my priorities, turns me angry and jealous and breaks my heart. I'm not mature enough to live comfortably with it and I hate the subtle power struggle in standard relationships.

What I crave now, at age 20 and not necessarily forever is an informal, ambiguous kind of friendship based on physical affection and comfort. I want to be able to chat and cuddle and lounge with a guy, but to still be free. I want to not have someone else constantly in the back of my mind and not have anyone expecting me to call or be home.

I don't know if that kind of thing is possible, of course, but it's what I want.

You know I keep coming back to this thread but Ive not posted in it yet as I think its cos I really have no idea what I do actually would like in a soul mate or significant other.

I think its cos I don't acutely know anyone where I click on a moor personal level with them. I did used to kinder off when I was younger, Much younger then I am now. But I think its easier to fall in love when your younger.

I think what I would like is just someone to love and be loved back that I can trust. I do think with out trust you have nothing.

The problem is I feel am unable to trust any one in to days world as I think there are very few ppl in the world that look at things as in for life. ppl am sure think well if I've been marred for 20 years that's a good amount. Not the way I think at all.

Used to be a lot easier when I was younger to trust. Now I just see the way ppl are and I have to say am not much liking what I see. ppl I fined are sailfish and marry for money and for material things rather then for love.

How sad is it that I don't even know what I wont. How could I expect someone else too? Do you think you forget how to fall in love?

I've neer ben in love so im almost in the same boat as blue. But i think i want sme one i cant talk to about all the weird thoughts in my head and would talk about theirs. i mean i want some one who i can confide all my personal thoughts in and not lose face. this could just be because i never felt safe telling any one any of my fears or weaknessis exept online and thats so inpersonal.

and to be honestly i just read the last page of this thread so sorry to every one else that posted this is the first time ive done this s dont attack me. *shields face, sheilds grone and closes eyes*

This post was last modified: 07-11-2008 07:39 PM by Outlawstarl337.

all i want is someone to know the real me.
all i want is someone to share a comfortable silence
all i want is to help someone
all i want is to have someone comfort me in times of need
all i want is to have a close circle of friends.
all i want is to have someone love me unconditionally.
that's really all i want.

apparently i can never have these things.

its one of those nights for me.