I wouldn't say that I am afraid of rejection. I'm constantly being asked to do something and have gained the reputation of being "anti-social." Not the psychological disorder, just don't like being around people.

iwasaloverb4thiswar, I konw your not being condescending. I agree with what you're saying, but I can't put it into practice. Every time I meet someone, my first reaction is, "Finally someone who doesn't bug the hell out of me!" Thirty minutes later I will notice some quality in that person that makes me see him/her as an idiot.

I think this problem is a psychological disorder, and more than likely, something I will never get over. Thanks for understanding everyone!

Depression is a psychological disorder. Doesn't mean you cant get over it.
And for that matter, happiness is too, Its just one people like to hold on to, for more obvious reasons.

yeah i agree, then i don't...but either way I think the mind is a powerful thing and you can make just about anything real for yourself...check out some of the crazy research on buddhist monks if you don't believe me. this is not a plug for buddhism btw, there are plenty of other examples but i am too tired to try to think of them... Anyway i don't even know what my point was anymore...ummm....ah well i guess I mean to say hang in there buddy, senior year is a time when a lot of us start to become a little frayed at the seams. and maybe this new disinterest in your old friends (and everyone) is just a sign that you ready to move on to new things...a way to shed your old shell or some other equally cliche metaphor. lol. well thats all i got...

oh, and nat? no i don't listen to much zappa, though i have heard some of his stuff. maybe you can reccomend your highlights of his collection and I will give it a go?

I think the answer's pretty simple. You just haven't found anyone you like. Once you find people you like, interacting with them won't seem like such a chore.

It funny to me running that im the opposite of you. I have the uncanning ability to get people to hate me and i dont do it on perpis. i have a abstract thinking patteron so everyone thinks im an idiot or insane. I hate most people i know exept a small circale of friends i have. I uswally see the resons why people would hate me and i just deal with it.

I can relate to what RunningAlone feels. I am also considered popular among my peers, yet I feel it is tiredsome to interect with others as I many times feel that I have nothing to tell them. This is usually because I cannot see any depth in anything they have to say.

Nonetheless, there is people who I consider to be my closer friends; they are smart people to whom I can share the depth of my mind, just as they will share theirs.

I advise not judging people right off. Use your observation skills to notice with whom you'll have a shallow relationship and with whom you'll have a more in-depth relationship.

i know how you feel
it all depends on the people who you hang out with
some people will make you terribly mad for no reason
i think its conflicting personalties
but you should try to find different people to spend time with

Dear RunningAlone,

Not to be blunt or anything, but who the fuck are you?

In other words, here's something that might cure you: as soon as you start to think you're better than somebody else or you can't stand to be around someone, just know that there's somebody else who feels the exact same way about you. That oughta do it.

Yours Truly,
-zraskolnikov

man that true and funny in a sad way

hah, I'm the oppostite. I think so poorly of myself. I'm disgusting, I don't deserve to have anyone stand beside me. But for some reason, there are people in thins life whom I cherish that seem to have found it in their hearts to embrace my worthless peculiarities and take the time to befriend me.
I'm so insensitive and careless, I hate it. It kills me to think my carelessness could inadvertantly hurt someone.
I think people are precious, perfect in their flaws. But I, I am disgusting.