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I am not certain what exactly is the reason for social loneliness in general, but I can tell you why I think I'm lonely.

I know for a fact that I have a low self-esteem. I am very negative about everything and cannot accomplish difficult tasks. I always end up quiting. Nothing seems to motivate me. To make it short, I am what you can call a social misfit or simply put, disconnected.

The real question is why? Well, I despise whining but I must whine in this reply. My whole life has been utter crap. Ever since my childhood, I have always been lonely. I had my parents of course but I never had any friends. As an adolescent, I tried various times to break the ice and make friends but it never seemed to work. These would-be friends would just ignore me and at times, make fun of me. I tried numerous times to find a female companion and it never worked out. I was always rejected or ignored. I guess I wasn't good looking enough or popular enough. Only one time, when things seemed to be going great, I had the worst experience of my life.

I had met a girl in the school library and we started talking regularly for about a month. One day, she asked me to accompany her to the school dance. I did, that same night, we went to her house afterwards because her parents were gone for the night. We began romancing and kissing etc... When we were about to have intercourse, she burst out in laughter and told me that I was "un-fuckable" due to my incredibly "small" penis(to add insult to injury, she told me that I was the lousiest kisser she has ever been with). I was ashamed and left her house running. The next day, the entire school had heard about this ordeal and started making fun of me. I had to relocate after 2 months of enduring ridicule and inhumanity.

At the new school, everything was the same. I was still lonely, still trying to make friends, meet women, etc... It was then when I began to feel very depressed and decided to isolate myself from society because I wasn't cut out for it. I dropped out of school and explained everything to my mother. She then took me to a psychologist which referred me to a psychiatrist and I was diagnosed with various disorders.

Since then, My life has been the same monotony. Sleep all day, awake all night, chainsmoke, and living my "life" through a widescreen tv watching movies. My self esteem is beneath the floor, I have no social skills, I am jobless, I have no high school diploma, I have nothing except for my parents.

At this point, I don't think I'll ever attempt to do anything anymore. I lack the sexual skills at the age of 20 to please a woman, I lack the social skills to communicate with others, and I lack work skills to get hired anywhere. It's too late to learn the things I am supposed to know already.

Unfortunately, we live in a dog-eat-dog world and nothing can change that. I am a social misfit and I have learned to accept it.

Sorry for the long winded post.

That was simply too articulate to qualify as whining.

No Aaron, tell us here what you want to say.

Nowadays...people are afraid.

At least youve kissed a girl; ive never experienced that at age 19;

http://www.FoolQuest.com/flame.htm#links

Not to sound rude Aaron but it would help if your website's layout was a tad clearer. The most popular websites in the world like google have a very clear and plain layout. Not that website design has much to do with social loneliness.

I guess my own reason is I'm too awkward to fit in anywhere. I don't look like I belong anywhere and I have an odd way of talking. All my interests tend to be a bit niche. Also I get really nervous in public places so even if somebody invited me out I don't think I'd be able to do it.

This post was last modified: 11-19-2007 01:53 AM by HiddenHydey.

HiddenHydey, are you blind? http://www.FoolQuest.com is all about social lonliness from word one!

Oh your back, I thought you would have found another forum to spam your web site on by now.