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I am on my way to college, on the path to starting my graphic design/ writing/ photography career. I am putting forth my best effort to make sure that one day my children (if I am even lucky enough to ever have any) have better than everything I've ever had. I am making sure, right now, that my future is secure, comfortable and stable. I am only young and I know that I am not mature enough to leave the nest just yet. I know the fruit is there, waiting for me to taste it...but I also know that it is not yet ripe enough for me to savor and completely enjoy it.

His path is not even entirely clear to me, but I can make a few predictions from certain little details. His police record is not clean (I never had a problem with that before, I used to like bad guys...but I am older, and a little smarter now...I don't think I can much agree with my younger self), neither is the blood coursing through his once beautiful veins (he dabbles in some drugs...he says he isn't addicted, can stop anytime he wants...if thats true then Lucifer is my biological father and my name isn't Racquelle, it's Molly...), and I don't know much about his education since he doesn't tell me...(but he always asks how I am doing).

I know it probably sounds like I am bitching and complaining. I am not. I just don't want to be with him. I want something better for my future...
I am not a little girl anymore, and I am no longer the type to fall for just good looks alone (which is pretty much what got me in this mess in the first place). I've changed drastically in the months since dating him (snd i mean maturing BIG time, in a lot of different ways) and I don't know how it will affect him if he knew how I truly felt.

He wants too much from me. He wants actual marriage. Actual children. A life together. I don't mean to sound rude or anything, but I want my children to have a better father, and I can't say he will make the cut.

I sound like a bitch, I know, but I am only here with the best in mind for my future...
I don't know how to cut him loose...
Please help?
Tell him to clean up or you are gone.
I did.
Thats when he said he would, then he said he wasn't addicted...and that he only ''dabbled'' a little.
And honestly I just want to be alone anyway.
At least I could mingle and not feel guilty...
So would it be safe to say that you just don't want a serious relationship at all for the foreseeable future? Feel like you don't want to be tied down by a man and you want to go out and be free?
You might as well just break it off with him.

Seems like that's how you feel anyway.

So don't prolong the moment... that's only gonna make it worse.

Do it now while you still can, and move on with your own life.
(11-29-2011, 02:06 PM)kamya Wrote: [ -> ]So would it be safe to say that you just don't want a serious relationship at all for the foreseeable future? Feel like you don't want to be tied down by a man and you want to go out and be free?

EXACTLY!!!!
But that is only one reason.
I knew that if I stayed with him, it wouldn't have been fun for me.
(11-29-2011, 02:12 PM)Badjedidude Wrote: [ -> ]You might as well just break it off with him.

Seems like that's how you feel anyway.

So don't prolong the moment... that's only gonna make it worse.

Do it now while you still can, and move on with your own life.

Even though I now have a really weird heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach, I am moving on right now.
Has he threatened to hurt you?
He hasnt but i dont think i would put it past him, knowing what hes into
one of his friends, jokingly, called him a crazy whiteboy, but he didnt laugh when he said it...
i too that to heart though, ppl dont just call you crazy for nothing with a straight face...
like i said
ull b fine
really
n the graphic design/ writing/ photography
is n XCELLENT choice 4 u
btw
Smile
Congratulations on moving on from that piece of shit.
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