Feeling utterly depressed. Hoping it all stops. Thinking how much debates and harsh judgment when you're already feeling down just pushes the depression into darker realms. Remembering when I had hope of a future.
Disregarded, dejected, ignoble, squalid...
I feel lonely and a bit depressed at the state of my pretty much now non-existent love life.
I hope that one day I will find somebody who will love me just the way I am, imperfections and all, even if I have issues and stuff.
If I could just magically be somebody else, I wouldn't, I'm not happy with the way my life is right now but I'm working on changing that and I believe that one day I will finally be happy in my own skin.
BRAIIINNSSS!!
....god damn it , got 2 zombies today, nailed one with a sock from my bike, got tagged from behind as I went to pick up my sock
hardly any humans left, though I got my roommate
Feeling sick/hungover but goooood.

Remembering - last night, made the effort to go out for a friend that I'd been avoiding then fell out of touch with for ages birthday. Thanks to the miracles of ecstacy/alcohol had a really good night and chatted/danced with a few new people.
Do feel really sick today tho.
*sighs* I feel very unstimulated of late,
like I've just gotten in the routine of class, homework, chill sleep
it's not the depressing lethargia that I often get,
I'm just very bored, and I have nothing to look forward to and I don't have the motivation to really get my life anywhere
but late adolescence it seems you've really seen it all
maybe my body is just tired, staying up a little later than usual and not taking nightquil takes longer for me to fall asleep,
i just wish something would happen
hmmm
maybe I'll take a nap when i get home
yayyy
--seriously the most exciting thing in my life
feeling- a little hungry. wish i had something to snack on.
hoping- i can muster the strength needed to hit the gym after work.
thinking- what to do about this...
remembering- her.
Wishing I was more trusting of my own judgement about so many things.
And excited about the future.
And I should be sleeping. *gone*
Grateful. Although I am in a place in my life that I never would have imagined a few years ago, I am grateful for the new friends I have made and the safe and wonderful place I have to live.