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Keep having dreams about giving birth, and I honestly have never looked so beautiful (shows how realistic this dream is), whats weird is theres a guy from ALL by my side... yikes.... lmaooo sorry to break it to you red pilling no baby wanting men... one of you is doomed... and with Princess Ceno of all girls! Better get your bank account together...🤣 😅

Ska's To-Do List, Friday January 13 2023:

- Deal ALL the cocaine.




Great, shouldn't be a problem! :whistle: 🎶 🌙 🎷
 
All the good things I have done since I got out.One was apologize to a girl now a woman I beat up at age 16.Broke 2 of her ribs and nose.She saw I changed and forgave me.Saw I felt bad for what I did to her.We do talk now and put this behind us
 
Browsing random fb profiles the other day, saw this guy that had a nice car so I wondered to myself as I always do, "how do they have this car, what do they do for a living" because I'm trying to get ideas of what could work for me.

But as is often the case with people like that, they had conservative views. And it pissed me off, like I don't even know this person but I already know enough to know I don't like them. I just feel like conservatives are, at their core, ********. The conservative personality, is the ******* personality. They seem to have a belief of, "the system is good, because it's good FOR ME, and that's all that matters". Like the system is good for people who just so happen to be good at math, and interested in math, and what do you know, they're good at and interested in math, so they think the system is absolutely good. Oh, what's this, you're not good at or interested in math, and therefore there's not much of a place in the system for you? Well fresia you then. What's good for them is all that matters. They're incapable, or unwilling, to see things outside of their own experience, and they pride themselves on it.

It's such a selfish egotistical ********* worldview, where they are the only person who matters, because they think they're right, and think they're better than everyone else.
In fact it's pretty much the same attitude as the ********* "popular kid" personality from growing up - the system is good, the way things are is good, because they just so happen to have the right body/background/brain/mind/personality/interests so it's good for them personally, and that's all that matters.
I've always disliked this kind of person, on an instinctive level.

And the worst is when they try to frame themselves as the good guy, like "I'm actually a huge GIVER, all I care about is GIVING, all I care about is the betterment of society, I'm the good guy, it's you people that are the ******** because you just want to take". Like, fresia off. All you want to do is grab as much as you can for yourself and feel like you're inherently "better" than everyone else, that is all you care about and that is what everything you do is really about, at least have the stones to be honest about it and own it. Miss me with this holier-than-thou fake-selfless "giver" pseudo-new-age-capitalist bullshit. That seems to be what capitalism is trying to do to sort of rehabilitate its image these days.

Not only that but often times these people are BORING.
All they do is stand around at concerts or sporting events - I know a lot of people like those things but for me I'm burned out on it. When I've gone to those, I feel like I'm watching the players or band members have a life, and I'm just gawking at them like an idiot with no thoughts or ideas of my own. I feel like I'm just watching someone else have a life, rather than having a life of my own. Idk I guess I'm just bored of watching millionaires prance around and living vicariously through them to make up for the void in my own life, but it doesn't do that much for me.

Other than that, they just stand around in other locations, like cool dude, you're just standing there taking generic scenery photos, great, good for you. Or they'll just be eating at fancy restaurants and drinking alcohol. I guess that feels nice, sure, but it's not particularly interesting.

I end up feeling like there is nothing I want to ask the person, like this isn't someone I'd want to hang out with.
Usually their car is the most interesting thing about them, and that's it.
 
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. When I've gone to those, I feel like I'm watching the players or band members have a life, and I'm just gawking at them like an idiot with no thoughts or ideas of my own. I feel like I'm just watching someone else have a life, rather than having a life of my own
This. (y)
Nailed it.
 
This. (y)
Nailed it.

Yeah, I've been feeling that way for a while now. I started feeling that way at the last several concerts I went to, where halfway through it or so, I was bored and wanted to go home. Didn't matter what artist or genre it was. I didn't know what was bothering me about it for a while, just a vague feeling, then it hit me - it was because I was just watching someone else have a life, rather than actually doing something myself. I wasn't really engaged with anything, I was still just passively consuming just the same as I would be if I was listening to music at home. And I still felt like my life was just passing me by. I don't want to stand around and watch "the special people" have lives and pretend that it's me while my own life is a boring nothing. I want to be something in my own right.

Don't get me wrong, there are a few concerts that I haven't seen yet that I wouldn't mind seeing. But it's not enough for me to live vicariously through other people. It doesn't fulfill me or make me feel like I am a person of my own. It doesn't give me anything to talk about, about myself and my life and doesn't help me connect with anyone else.

I don't hate successful people solely on the basis of them being successful and I'm not, either. It's more like the egotism that bothers me, the "I've got mine, f you" attitude, their self-righteousness and acting like they are superior beings. The feeling that things are good because they just so happen to have the stuff the world favors, and the unwillingness to see things outside of their own experiences.

I would respect successful people more, if they had more of an attitude of "I found something that works for me and my traits/personality/interests, what works for me might not work for you, everyone is different".
 
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We're in the future. Where are the transporters, the replicators, the holodecks? Why is money still necessary, considering we now have more than enough ressources in the world to feed, clothe and lodge everyone on the planet.
Humanity. That's why.
The very thing that will save us, is right now preventing us from being saved. How poetic.
 
I don't want to stand around and watch "the special people" have lives and pretend that it's me while my own life is a boring nothing. I want to be something in my own right.

It doesn't fulfill me or make me feel like I am a person of my own. It doesn't give me anything to talk about, about myself and my life and doesn't help me connect with anyone else.
I've always felt that way. That's why I never watch sports, go to concerts, or watch what other people do. I've never understood the team mentality. "Our team is winning! Woohoo!" I'm like who gives a honeysuckle. It's got nothing to do with me. It blows my mind how so many people get excited the "their" team is winning. I can respect their accomplishments. But, that's about as far as it goes.
 

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