Reasons

[MissBehave]

I also like forum's format and don't like telegrams. You can have as much time to answer as you need and there are threads and so on.
In one song there are the words smth like "on the site loneliness.ru" (russian song), so I thought that there should be some forums for lonely people.
At first I found a russian one but there were only a few people there and it was more like a private club(it's only my feelings). Then I decided to Google in english(also it's more safe as almost no chances to be recognized) and got this one and I liked it. I registered but was too afraid to write so I was away for a few years. But them I felt that I really need people to talk and appeared again.

Well, it's not why, it's how. And a reason is that I feel lonely and need some social interaction except work.

Are you from Russia?
I've always had a fascination with Russian culture. I remember hearing someone speak Russian and instantly got this "oooooohhh **** what's this!?".

 

[Adamridge79]

As I'm still rather new here, I notice names and avatars, and though I'm sure I'll figure out the latter in due time, I'm curious as to the motivation behind your chosen name
To start, no this is not my actual name. Not sure how old you were, or if you've even heard of the 'what would your porn name be' game, but it was the 80's when I came up with this, and I never really used it much. So yeah, I had a stage name before I was 10. That probably says something...

 

[kanekistrange]

my girlfriend ghosted me again for the longest time and i just so lonely i suppose.. our relationship just seems toxic i need a reason to leave her for good now cause i feel so rejected already as it is.. i just thought id read peoples experiences with life and try to appreciate my existence( eventhough i know i wouldnt feel any better reading other peoples experiences).
i know my life would never get better since i was 10 so why would it, so i suppose what i need is come to terms with my life.
this site sorta helped but in the end it will be up to me to move on or survive with a smile on my face atleast

 

[Adamridge79]

I have realized, through help, I have only been in toxic relationships. The last one, I was the horribly toxic aspect. But, the one that still mind f's me 15 years later is one I have the hardest time moving on from. If you see that for what it is, that's a giant kudos..you may just be primed for crushing it. But, I can only speculate

 

[kanekistrange]

I have realized, through help, I have only been in toxic relationships. The last one, I was the horribly toxic aspect. But, the one that still mind f's me 15 years later is one I have the hardest time moving on from. If you see that for what it is, that's a giant kudos..you may just be primed for crushing it. But, I can only speculate

thats the tragedy of it.
youve been so alone for almost youre life and everytime you feel someone caring you just give 110 percent. not to mention the sunk cost fallacy usually gets me. in the end no matter how much time, money and energy i throw into a relationship it just ends up failing. sometimes i think im born to be alone.

 

[kanekistrange]

As I'm still rather new here, I notice names and avatars, and though I'm sure I'll figure out the latter in due time, I'm curious as to the motivation behind your chosen name
To start, no this is not my actual name. Not sure how old you were, or if you've even heard of the 'what would your porn name be' game, but it was the 80's when I came up with this, and I never really used it much. So yeah, I had a stage name before I was 10. That probably says something...

that pornstar name sounds lit . im not sure i could have come up with something remotely passable myself. lmao

mines a combination of a japanese manga/anime character called tokyo ghoul.( we have somewhat similar lives, except some are not direct comparisons and as his story already ended in a happy ending, i cant really compare myself to him other than the times he was miserable)
strange if from emily the strange which i was fond of back then. in someways i kinda imagined myself to be friend with her. shes like this bad ass girl that does what ever she wants and all those kinda stuff.

 

[Adamridge79]

Oh, I mostly agree...I try to sell this, but 'you're a good blah blah' and it comes down to...no, that is not how I see it..
Like..um, married person of 17 years.
Stfu

 

[Adamridge79]

Shoot...I responded to two posts at the same time

 

[Adamridge79]

Again, I am still trying to navigate this forum, and if I sound like I have sundowner, its not intentional

 

[Adamridge79]

I just honestly never thought anyone would palaver

 

[Adamridge79]

It is still so unreal that I can instigate any responses....I just know dismissal

 

[Adamridge79]

Dammit...attention wh***

 

[Adamridge79]

>,format...kill a thread...<

 

[Adamridge79]

Well..........

 

[Adamridge79]

I don't pre

 

[MissBehave]

I don't pre either

 

[4No1]

Are you from Russia?
I've always had a fascination with Russian culture. I remember hearing someone speak Russian and instantly got this "oooooohhh **** what's this!?".

Yeah, from St.Petersburg if you heared of it)

P.S. This thread turned into smth strange

 

[MissBehave]

Yeah, from St.Petersburg if you heared of it)

P.S. This thread turned into smth strange

I've heard of that.
Yeah, the threads tend to go on and off topic. As long as people are here and replying its a good thing I think. So how's St. Petersburg this time of year? Cold?

 

[Adamridge79]

I just saw I posted some stuff that I didn't mean to. I need to not write on my night meds apparently. I wasn't married 17 months, let alone years. No idea where that came from

 

[JJW]

I wasn't married 17 months, let alone years. No idea where that came from

Alternate reality.