Worthless

[user 181147]

Does anyone just feel worthless and wish they just disappeared? Just cry a lot and have no one who really cares. Tired of feeling this way.

 

[Sunless Sky]

Does anyone just feel worthless and wish they just disappeared? Just cry a lot and have no one who really cares. Tired of feeling this way.

I used to feel that way a lot as a teenager. I even contemplated suicide once as a result.

Not as much now that I am on my meds.

As for the crying however, I haven't cried ever since I turned 16. Think I am so emotionally stunted I can't cry as easily anymore. I suppress a lot of my emotions.

 

[Melli12]

I'm sorry you feel that way.
I know that very well.

Ppl measure each other as If they are goods, that have a price tagged on their forehead. That's not right.

 

[Sarah G]

Does anyone just feel worthless and wish they just disappeared? Just cry a lot and have no one who really cares. Tired of feeling this way.

Yes, often. It passes and returns but in the moment feels like it's permanent. I've been trying DBT (dialectical behavioural therapy) RAIN (Tara Brach) and mindfulness to help it (after 30 years of it, since I was 18).
I have less attacks of feeling that way lately but still at the time is terrible and I want to die.

Sometimes I mail Samaritans just for the sake of reaching out to another human or I read Suicide Project to remind myself I'm not alone in feeling that way.

 

[U-122]

Does anyone just feel worthless and wish they just disappeared? Just cry a lot and have no one who really cares. Tired of feeling this way.

No, but i just ran into my neighbor who makes me feel exactly that. Yes i wish she would just disappear, stop existing. She makes me cry. Nobody cares and i can't make her care because i can't say and do hurtful things to her she says and does to me.

 

[ewomack]

I have had moments like that myself. It sucks. Thankfully they do pass.

If you feel that way, people here care, so let us know and we'll let you know that we care.

You're not worthless, no matter what you think the world is telling you. Hang in there. It will pass.

 

[Colster]

Does anyone just feel worthless and wish they just disappeared? Just cry a lot and have no one who really cares. Tired of feeling this way.

Couldn't say that I feel worthless, I definitely have value. Although, nobody notices it until they expect something from me. Yes, I do regularly consider disappearing, in every sense of that. And no, I don't cry about it. The inner debate often lingers about whether crying might help some issues. Without any doubt, I am tired of these feelings.

I won't even begin to comment or speculate about your issues. Mine are hopefully a phase, and I would optimistically hope that you're are to. But know this, you are not worthless, and we are here if you need to reach out about anything. And no, we're not going to solve the world and it's issues, but we might just brighten each other's day.

 

[user 181147]

Couldn't say that I feel worthless, I definitely have value. Although, nobody notices it until they expect something from me. Yes, I do regularly consider disappearing, in every sense of that. And no, I don't cry about it. The inner debate often lingers about whether crying might help some issues. Without any doubt, I am tired of these feelings.

I won't even begin to comment or speculate about your issues. Mine are hopefully a phase, and I would optimistically hope that you're are to. But know this, you are not worthless, and we are here if you need to reach out about anything. And no, we're not going to solve the world and it's issues, but we might just brighten each other's day.

It’s awesome that you feel you have worth. It’s nice to hear. I just wish I could feel that way. Without wanting to permanently be gone. Thank you, though. I appreciate it.

 

[user 181147]

I have had moments like that myself. It sucks. Thankfully they do pass.

If you feel that way, people here care, so let us know and we'll let you know that we care.

You're not worthless, no matter what you think the world is telling you. Hang in there. It will

Yes, often. It passes and returns but in the moment feels like it's permanent. I've been trying DBT (dialectical behavioural therapy) RAIN (Tara Brach) and mindfulness to help it (after 30 years of it, since I was 18).
I have less attacks of feeling that way lately but still at the time is terrible and I want to die.

Sometimes I mail Samaritans just for the sake of reaching out to another human or I read Suicide Project to remind myself I'm not alone in feeling that way.

I’ve never heard of suicide project. Maybe Ill check that out. Those hotlines never help, in fact make me want to kms even more. I know they’re just doing their job.

 

[xephier102]

Does anyone just feel worthless and wish they just disappeared? Just cry a lot and have no one who really cares. Tired of feeling this way.

Only every damned day.

Think I am so emotionally stunted I can't cry as easily anymore. I suppress a lot of my emotions.

Are you a guy, cuz if so, that's considered 'normal'.

I'm sorry you feel that way.
I know that very well.

Ppl measure each other as If they are goods, that have a price tagged on their forehead. That's not right.

Welcome to capitalism

No, but i just ran into my neighbor who makes me feel exactly that. Yes i wish she would just disappear, stop existing. She makes me cry. Nobody cares and i can't make her care because i can't say and do hurtful things to her she says and does to me.

Got a shovel, a rope and some plastic sheeting? JK, don't go killin anyone. Just keep em in the back of your truck where they're visible, and if she gets on your nerves, passively make her aware of them. I doubt she'd bother you much after that. XD

people here care

Eh.. Let's be honest, people here relate, I don't know that 'care' is really the correct verb. I mean, 'care' as much as you can care for any random person on the internet. But actual caring doesn't come into play until you actually know someone, or have at least shared a handful of non-generic conversations with them.

I’ve never heard of suicide project. Maybe Ill check that out.

They never do help. I phoned em once to ask about a box of razor blades, and they just got mad.


Sorry for the dot spam.. I got a little carried away with replies, and this site doesn't allow us to delete our own messages for some reason..

 

[Melli12]

Welcome to capitalism


----> I know, that's exactly what I was complaining about. I am allowed to say my opinion.

 

[ewomack]

Eh.. Let's be honest, people here relate, I don't know that 'care' is really the correct verb. I mean, 'care' as much as you can care for any random person on the internet. But actual caring doesn't come into play until you actually know someone, or have at least shared a handful of non-generic conversations with them.

That's your opinion and you're entitled to it, but let's be honest, you don't really know what other people feel.

 

[xephier102]

I know, that's exactly what I was complaining about. I am allowed to say my opinion.

I wasn't arguing it, lol.. I was passively bitchin about capitalism alongside you. Nothing like systems that depend on people's greed to keep em running..

That's your opinion and you're entitled to it, but let's be honest, you don't really know what other people feel.

So you 'care' equally for every person on the planet? Assuming that's your mindset, then that kinda devalues the sentiment. It's like being on the friend list of one of those people on Facebook that has over 1000 'friends'. Or being on an artist website and having someone 'watch' you, but then you realize that the person has half the artists on the site in their watch list.

Nothing to do with opinion, it's called logic and common sense.

 

[Colster]

I wasn't arguing it, lol.. I was passively bitchin about capitalism alongside you. Nothing like systems that depend on people's greed to keep em running..


So you 'care' equally for every person on the planet? Assuming that's your mindset, then that kinda devalues the sentiment. It's like being on the friend list of one of those people on Facebook that has over 1000 'friends'. Or being on an artist website and having someone 'watch' you, but then you realize that the person has half the artists on the site in their watch list.

Nothing to do with opinion, it's called logic and common sense.

Applying this logic, why care for anyone. Are we all sociopathic, is our love it indeed any love, merely narcissistic and entirely selfish. Is empathy a spent emotion. Shall we murder and burn anyone who isn't us. Logic and common sense, as being stated, would mean that anyone who is not us, is therefore an enemy.

 

[ewomack]

So you 'care' equally for every person on the planet? Assuming that's your mindset, then that kinda devalues the sentiment. It's like being on the friend list of one of those people on Facebook that has over 1000 'friends'. Or being on an artist website and having someone 'watch' you, but then you realize that the person has half the artists on the site in their watch list.

Nothing to do with opinion, it's called logic and common sense.

It's all opinion. Nothing to do with logic or "common sense."

 

[user 148069]

Does anyone just feel worthless and wish they just disappeared? Just cry a lot and have no one who really cares. Tired of feeling this way.

It's a feeling I know too well along with the crying spells. It comes and goes over the years. It's lesser now for me since I think I've learnt better coping skills.
It's exhausting and draining but I hope it passes for you.

 

[Lucylou]

Does anyone just feel worthless and wish they just disappeared? Just cry a lot and have no one who really cares. Tired of feeling this way.

I know the feeling, like if I die how long before anyone notices. But it eventually passes, my worst is when I wake up in the middle of the night having an anxiety attack. I think being able to read the posts here helps me feel not so alone.

 

[user 181147]

I wasn't arguing it, lol.. I was passively bitchin about capitalism alongside you. Nothing like systems that depend on people's greed to keep em running..


So you 'care' equally for every person on the planet? Assuming that's your mindset, then that kinda devalues the sentiment. It's like being on the friend list of one of those people on Facebook that has over 1000 'friends'. Or being on an artist website and having someone 'watch' you, but then you realize that the person has half the artists on the site in their watch list.

Nothing to do with opinion, it's called logic and common sense.

I already know, and it’s ok. I’m numb to it. I really meant family or people close. It is nice to know that some people can care in thought, and care that someone is in mental distress and is willing to listen. Stranger or not.

 

[Finished]

It’s awesome that you feel you have worth. It’s nice to hear. I just wish I could feel that way. Without wanting to permanently be gone. Thank you, though. I appreciate it.

I think I have a tremendous amount of value. I have many skills and can do a lot of great things for lots of people. However, it's pretty much always been me helping others and then getting ignored. It even happened that way at most of the jobs that I worked. Now, I don't think that anybody or society as a whole deserves what I can do for them. So, I only do stuff for myself now.

 

[xephier102]

Applying this logic, why care for anyone. Are we all sociopathic, is our love it indeed any love, merely narcissistic and entirely selfish. Is empathy a spent emotion. Shall we murder and burn anyone who isn't us. Logic and common sense, as being stated, would mean that anyone who is not us, is therefore an enemy.

For someone that loves reading, you sharply failed to see the context of what I was saying in regards to his comment. Obviously we care for people, but do you care for me? You don't even know me.

I just feel like too much false sentiment gets tossed around on the internet, and in general these days.. It's like when I was a kid and my mother would tell me that every art project or w.e that I brought home was 'great', never any distinction from one thing to the next. That actually sparked something in me that caused me to be a major perfectionist. Because without any standards or guidelines, the only way that you can be sure of your relative success in any given thing, is to perform better than anyone else.

And that mind set may have worked well if I'd been around anyone that actually believed in me, and/or stuck around for me. But without that emotional support, I've felt like nothing but a failure in everything I've done.. regardless of how well I did, since I generally can't tell unless I get a honeysuckle review because everyone lies through their teeth all to support their own vanity.

I know the feeling, like if I die how long before anyone notices.

Same here.. Not working right now, and generally pay two months of rent at a time, so depending on when it happened, I could sit here and rot for 2.5-3 months.. The debate is less about anyone noticing so much as, if they'd find me because of the landlord coming in to get his rent or get me out, or because of the smell..

It is nice to know that some people can care in thought, and care that someone is in mental distress and is willing to listen. Stranger or not.

I get that, but sometimes it can be difficult to distinguish between false sentiment, or genuine compassion. When push comes to shove, what would this person be willing to do for you, what would they be willing to sacrifice. To me, that's 'caring'. When someone is willing to sacrifice something that they care about in order to see you happy.

It's all opinion. Nothing to do with logic or "common sense."

According to your logic, everything is 'opinion' nothing is tangible. And on a deep philosophical note, that may be true to some extent, but we need some structure to build our reality on, or else nothing is real..

So, I only do stuff for myself now.

I feel ya, but it's a lonely way to be, for sure..