Hey how are you doing? I'm living in Southeast Asia too and sometimes I just feel exactly how you feel. Living without a goal and trying to please others.
But I guess, i dont think life is only about happiness anyway, i think life is a lot deeper than that. It's a lot more important to grow...
To some point I can relate. Sometime I just don't want to talk to people, anyone, but the other times, I just crave interaction, I don't know, I'm not a shy person.