Recent content by BrassMonkey

I've tried so hard just to be a part of something. I've been rejected by everything in my life. I don't have a family, my parents divorced when I was 5. I've tried so hard to find a social circle but am constantly rejected by my peers. I've had 4 true friends in my life at separate times and...

I feel like I am an extrovert but my social anxiety/depression is hindering me. Ever since high school, I've been very quiet and not very involved socially. I'm often called out as being too quiet, but not as much anymore. One thing I don't like to do is cause attention to myself by being loud...

I'm afraid of meeting people too. I see myself as dull and inferior which causes anxiety and negative thoughts in social situations. This is especially so with women I'm attracted to since I feel I need to impress them. Why are you so scared of people? That's something only you can answer...

I think the permanency of your life is not completely in your control but it is possible. It's permanent in the sense that certain important people will remain in your life. Close friends, family, significant other, etc. It's up to you (and them) to do your part in the relationship so it stays...

Lol. Brass monkey junkie, that funky monkey!

You're not shy when you're with your friends because you're comfortable and not afraid of them judging you. Try to clear you mind of any negative or obsessive thoughts like "what do they think of me" or "what should I say". Relax, act like you do when your with friends. Don't hold yourself back...