buzzworm86

I've been sad my whole life, at least since ten years old. I could never make friends very well, always the hyper class clown. I didn’t know how to relate to people ever? Never knew my father due to his suicide. I've never had a girl friend, and only a couple physical encounters. This amazes me too, I look at many goons who have someone and I ask myself "what do they have that I don't?" I have severe long term depression and personality disorders. I am tired of living.