Recent content by Elyseon

When people get like that with me I shut down completely, I don't know if it comes from my childhood or what but I completely shut the person off and tune them out and write them off. I don't engage, speak to, or deal with them. When people nag at me especially things get muffled and I zone out...

I have long since accepted what has happened, it took a long time but I have. It's just trying to live with my self and move on from it, function like a normal person. I guess this whole post started because I was having a good time one day, and then something happened, something small and...

I am sorry to hear that. I wouldn't wish it on anybody. I hope everything works out for you and that you have understanding people in your life.

Thanks a lot. You put that into great perspective. I definitely agree that people tend to use their own life experiences and views and apply them to other people. Some people handle things differently even from the same situations. And the whole being shamed for not being able to just get over...

Thanks for your input guys. It just feels frustrating sometimes wen you take 1 step forward and then 2 steps back, or at least it seems that way.

In my situation it feels more an anchor thats pulling me under water than a crutch and every time I unwrap the chain another link ends up tangled.

I guess there are points when I can let it go for a moment but then something happens that triggers a sometimes forgotten memory and I go into full blown panic mode. I have nightmares and will stay awake for days at a time. I am really angry at myself for not being able to overcome this even 2...

Sometimes I get burned out and stop for a while but I always go back to them. Recently I have been playing older consoles like the super nintendo.

I hate it when people give me most of the time vulgar compliments on my breasts and how big they are. Especially when its in super public place with a bunch of people around. I don't think its funny at all. I know I have big boobs but you don't have to be an ******* about it and make me feel...

I can relate due to my past I don't even feel like I am a person. I can't function like one most of the time besides the breathing/eating/sleeping part.

Has anyone ever had anything really bad happen to you that even decades later affects ever single action you take in life? I have crippling anxiety, I have trouble trusting people and I have trouble making and maintaining friendships. I spent many years as a shut in, I am slowly coming out more...

Cool picture. It was mostly purple with blue highlights and it melted into a peacock green on the ends. I loved it but it was expensive to keep up. I had that hairstyle for over a year. Some clothes clashed with my head so I couldn't wear them lol. I'd do it again if I had the extra money. It...

I didn't say everyone looked nice, just that all the pictures I have seen so far of people who've posted have looked nice.  I haven't seen anyone ugly on here, I don't know what people who didn't post their pictures look like but I know that everyone so far has been very kind and has made me...

Thank you, that was before I got the bright idea to dye my whole head purple and blue and then after I got sick of it and couldn't dye over it got impatient and just decided to say fresia it and cut it all out lol. It was super short but now its almost shoulder length again. There are almost 1,000...

Thanks my eyes are really the only thing I like about my appearance otherwise I am pretty average I think. Lol, I miss my long hair. It was even longer than this when I cut it all off into a pixie. Its close to shoulder length now lol I am going to leave my hair alone from now on.