just alex
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Greetings, my name is Alexander but you can just call me Alex. I'm just you're average shy nerd. I still live with my parents and don't have any friends besides my brother and his roommate. I am currently attending college and trying to earn a general studies diploma. I love writing science fiction, playing the piano, watching star wars, star trek, Farscape (basically any sci-fi show) listening to music, and playing video games. I'm 6" 1' weigh 185 pounds and I have long brown hair. I have the heart of a fat person but I have a job delivering newspapers (which I do on foot) that helps to keep me in shape.
I have a very difficult time talking to people in general, but especially women. I suffer from social anxiety and depression on a regular basis. I've never had a girlfriend or even kissed a girl before (and you can probably extrapolate that into other things I've never done with women.) I feel like a complete loser most of the time but just recently I seemed to have found a calling in life, to be an author. I'm not the greatest writer but I am very creative.
I've lost most of my best friends over the years. Sometimes it was my fault they left, other times it was because we just drifted apart. I try to keep my head held high but most times I feel as though a storm hangs over my heart, raining down feelings of loneliness, thoughts of suicide, self-loathing and all that fun stuff. I suppose this is why I joined this website. I've never really participated in forums before. Never had a Myspace or facebook page, I mean what's the point? I don't have any friends. I've just never felt like I've been loved, apart from my family of course.
I'm a gentle person (at least when I'm not fragging people in the video games I play ha ha) but I've been told that I'm also a fairly intense person. There are just times that I wish so badly I had someone to love and be with that it almost makes me cry. Maybe I'm just a pussy or a coward, but I can never work up the courage to talk to people. I hope that this bio is not too brutally honest but I figure if I can reveal the person that I am, even if its just on an internet site, then maybe I can start down the path to improving my boring, uneventful life.
I have a very difficult time talking to people in general, but especially women. I suffer from social anxiety and depression on a regular basis. I've never had a girlfriend or even kissed a girl before (and you can probably extrapolate that into other things I've never done with women.) I feel like a complete loser most of the time but just recently I seemed to have found a calling in life, to be an author. I'm not the greatest writer but I am very creative.
I've lost most of my best friends over the years. Sometimes it was my fault they left, other times it was because we just drifted apart. I try to keep my head held high but most times I feel as though a storm hangs over my heart, raining down feelings of loneliness, thoughts of suicide, self-loathing and all that fun stuff. I suppose this is why I joined this website. I've never really participated in forums before. Never had a Myspace or facebook page, I mean what's the point? I don't have any friends. I've just never felt like I've been loved, apart from my family of course.
I'm a gentle person (at least when I'm not fragging people in the video games I play ha ha) but I've been told that I'm also a fairly intense person. There are just times that I wish so badly I had someone to love and be with that it almost makes me cry. Maybe I'm just a pussy or a coward, but I can never work up the courage to talk to people. I hope that this bio is not too brutally honest but I figure if I can reveal the person that I am, even if its just on an internet site, then maybe I can start down the path to improving my boring, uneventful life.
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"Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time."
- Mark Twain
- Mark Twain