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I'm 27 and can admit I'm a virgin. I'm lonley , pretty much always been . I did have a girlfriend for five years , who wasn't interested that kind of intimacy that I was cool with I could await a to I was marrieed . But the relationship ended in rough times. So I'm alone again yet is harder than it has ever been to be alone before it was easy yet now it's not why am I tortured in seeing people that are close to me never being alone on their own independent ever in remain somehow not ever being alone but me I am and have been in a better person for it , yet still they remain somehow never alone but I am . I deserve better, good guy , man , decent and caring and all it got me loneliness go figure.