Hi SB! :)
Aw I know what you mean by feeling socially retarded!, I have people in my life who would call themselves "friends" to me, but realistically these people aren't friends, I've been so manipulated and used by these people that it's left me unable to trust anyone and not wanting anybody...
Thinking where do i go from here. I feel so weak right now. I can't be decisive about anything and give up too easily. I wish i could be stronger for myself.