Recent content by MaratheGray

Sir Joseph, I know too many people who think they know the ultimate truth, some quite close to me, to go by a random internet stranger’s philosophy of truth. I think it’s presumptuous of you to assume what I do not know about religion and I don’t want to discuss it anymore. I really feel I don’t...

I just felt very angry at the time and needed to vent. It turns out one of the coworkers that was ignoring me was out of town and ignoring everybody and I know that she struggles with mental health issues like I do. I have a problem with getting certain ideas in my head and if I don't find an...

I am not inclined to join another church so much as just practice things which I think are good and moral and believe in God in the way I think is right. A lot of faiths think they are right and some don't even believe in Christ, like Hinduism and such. I spent my entire life being controlled...

Two days ago. What's your favorite type of music to listen to?

Thank you for your support. I really appreciate it.

I think that that makes sense. I do realize that statement is a solipsist way of thinking. I am currently on the path of leaving my religion, but a lot of those that leave my religion - Mormonism - where I turn for support turn to atheism, which makes it hard. I think my strict religion made it...

Thank you very much, it feels good to be listened to. Thanks for making me feel like I am not alone. Yeah one of the people who stopped replying to me was a coworker I considered a friend and she had just gotten a different job and so I thought that she was just done since she moved on to...

Today it seemed like everyone got together and agreed to ghost me, and it got me to thinking. After reading a thread by someone talking about feeling ashamed of needing people, I can say that I know the feeling. I know that there's a difference between "aloneness" and feeling lonely, but my life...

Yeah, I take meds for it.[/hr]

You didn't really. 2020 is just a year of being withdrawn I guess. I just realized that so many people that were so important in my life several years ago seem to have moved on or not really be close anymore.

I get a high on life feeling when I am manic because I was diagnosed with bipolar. So I know the feeling, but it's just rare for me.

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I can identify with that. I used to be on this site. Made some friends and we talked for awhile. Sadly they all seem to have moved on, most from this site, some from what I felt was our friendship. :/ :/

I feel the same way when I think of all the money I have sunk into hospital stays and mental health treatment. I wish that I wasn't so dysfunctional that I could manage this myself, and I'm not sure what I can do. I have thought about driving around the country in a van, but I have made too many...

Got turned down 4x in a week, and it's only Wednesday!