Recent content by marginallymental

Things are better now, stable at least but eh, gotta start picking up the pieces somewhere right? I think once you realize your being descructive to yourself is when you can stop and start rebuilding Maybe you're right. Maybe it is as simple as recognizing the problem. I hope what you call...

Can you people make out what goes on in my head? I've never understood it, and I've only recently become aware I even do this. After my mother initiated a messy, frightening divorce from my moderately abusive dad, something really spontaneous went out of me as a six year old. I became...

"I've realized maybe I share too much too quickly or something I don't know what the problem is. How do I figure out if its me pushing people away?" Wow, Sweetviki, how do you know me so well?! ;-) And do you notice, as I do, that when I supress the urge to "share" and just let others...

Breakthecycle, I know you posted several months ago, but I wanted so badly to write you tonight. I'm a REALLY OLD woman, so please don't think this is a come-on. You just so badly reminded me of my son, and myself when I was young all those years ago. Kid, you won't believe me in a million...

Thank you for the cute smilie! Hope we can share things in common, Naleena.

Thank you Gothmother, those are comforting words. Fortunately, I've always written, and for almost 19 years, I consoled myself with, "Soon you'll have the time". But as you know, writing is the most solitary thing one can do, and it hasn't helped my marriage, nor my friendship skills. I love...

Thank you Steel. What a great name!

Sorry this post is so late, but we had the last of the Asian Pears to pick and pack, so I was sidelined for a few days. Yes, Unacceptance, fruit growing has its perks, but you simply must love it--intensely--because unless you're big, thanks to the economics of scale, there's very little money...

"Its very common to feel lonely sometimes. Maybe, its because your kids are gradually leaving you" Thanks for the "mommy" hug--and you're right. Being out on this huge Reservation, schools were far away, and I homeschooled all four. So their leaving is a double whammy. Thanks for your...

Hello, I'm here because God heard my prayer (really) and when I searched, here you all were. I find that strange and beautiful. After reading your profiles, my heart went out to you ALL, and I felt a growing excitement--maybe this was a place where I could hang out? I sure hope so. I seem to...