Hello everyone.
After trying and trying and trying to change myself to fit in I am finally giving up to please others in order to be accepted.
This only increases my low self-esteem and self consciousness that I am not attractive ... or whatever comes first.
But I guess I am still trying and...
I hear your pain and understand it as I go through the same issue(s).
"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" they say. So it seems to be that the "beholders" are certainly blind in our case.